Dear Wp members,
I am so sorry for my lately regular outbursts and hope you can forgive me for what some might term 'drama'. I am struggling greatly right now with depression and isolation, and have come to rely on just one or two people from here, which is not a very good idea as I then fall apart when they are not there. This entire behaviour pattern leaves me feeling very ashamed and out of control, and in truth, leaves me feeling that the only way I can get by is to isolate myself entirely so that I don't become attached to anyone here. I fit all the traits for AS, but I do not feel I belong here because I seem to have some borderline traits too, which I find deeply shameful and frustrating.
I really do appreciate all who have stuck by me, and who posted to ask me not to leave. I do not do this for attention, though I feel sure that is a conclusion some, if not many, reach. I am genuinely feeling distressed and desperate at the times I do post that I am leaving and don't tend to reach out to anyone in those moments. I rather have a habit of expecting people to simply realise and reach out to me first and when they do not, I end up feeling even more alone. I genuinely have only 1 person off the net who knows me at all in this city and that is a very difficult thought to deal with.
But anyway, I apologise to anyone who might be upset by my outbursts and thought I would explain what is going on.
Kate.
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