scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Tired of always being up against it. Humans have so many advantages over me.

not sure. six. minus four. three. minus seven. one.

Net zero - swinging between -5 and +5 minute-by-minute.

My life is the oddest mixture of extraordinary success and miserable failure - and it depends on what I'm focusing on at the time. Right now it's the fails that are killing me.

Physically, I'm a -5, and mentally, I'm a -4. That adds up to a -9. Now I really hate my sensory issues.

-10 today: 12 hour meltdown, with built in shutdown that I am only just coming out of. Worst day in a looooong time!

5, can't complain

About -4, -5. Crashed my bike (cosmetic damage only). Had to have some stitches done. My helmet is busted. Awesome day, truly...

ah shoot that's no good! Hope you're physically ok!

Yeah. I've just had a £3000 motorbike cosmetically wrecked (talking £400+ repairs, which I can't go to insurance for), but other than that and the stitches (which are minor - 2 stitches on my left palm on a small but very deep wound), all good...sort of.

I wish I could be lucky, for once. Or at least not so goddamn unlucky. I'm like a bad luck magnet. BUT I got to carry a pillion passenger today, and that was awesome.

For a few hours I was veering towards -10 because I was in the middle of having one of the worst headaches I have ever felt. I could barely get up without feeling like I was going to vomit. Doing almost fine now, which I find kind of ironic because now I am about to go to bed, which would have been perfect for me to do earlier.

I'm zero. Well at least my migraine is gone. For now.

6. I over-slept (very awesome compared to undersleeping), got some needed work done, and played games and watched youtube videos with a friend for the rest of the day. We also went out and had some ice cream from cold stone creamery and, wow, cold stone creamery is pretty expensive for ice cream (One ice cream cone can buy you a quart at the store). I can only imagine going there once every year.

I also did more thinking about financial strategies for my future business and realized that using debt to fund growth of a business in a low-profit margin, capital-intensive volatile industry is a pretty bad long-term strategy and this is a mistake that apparently a lot of ambitious but inexperienced owners make (It was my original plan, actually, but I realized it was a bad idea on an insight.). Using debt for growth is less risky in industries/niches with higher-profit margins and lower volatility.

Given this insight, I'm starting to think it might be better to be find employment and fund the business after saving up for a year so in this way, I can avoid the risks of debt.

-10 f*****g ugh

+8

I was at a negative 10 Sunday night or worse than that. I was at a real low point due to a sever panic-attack. Monday I was at a negative 7 but it fluctuated some & yesterday it rose to about a Zero. Today I seem to averaging about a positive 5 so for & I'm listening to Rush rite now.
I posted about the panic attack & things in L&D last night here~ http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt174445.html

-3. My immune system is a joke. Sick again. Sleeping it off.