scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Vomit or hairball (no idea why i want to know)?

+5

I love getting greasy on cars.

-9.

If only I knew how to get into the right mood to kill myself. I'm not afraid of death, but it's extremely difficult to wipe out hope, entirely, when there is potential for things sometime changing.

*hug* hope you feel better man. I walked up to a group of people introduced myself, and they walked away. so yeah. then I talked to a friend who was hallucinating hard and she thought I was going to hurt her....wtf? I'm slightly offended.

+7 My daughter came home and all is right with the world... for now. I hope it stays this way. PLEASE!! ! I do not want to feel depressed again.

+5
gonna get tough week though

-8 I have a lump in my throat but I don't know for sure why, jealousy maybe?

+7. Wine makes me happy. Does this make me an alcoholic? Don't think I care anymore...

+5

-6
I can't believe that I need to resort to crying just to shut _____ up.

After an interesting day / week / month, I can honestly say I am feeling fine right now. Sometimes you just need to put things in perspective, it is so easy to get carried away with all the little things and drown in negativity.

Mental + 10

Physically exhausted so levels to a + 3

0. eh kinda numb weirdly.

-1 Long vent.

I had this pain in my chest last week, you see. It only hurt that one night, and I lost sleep. Up until yesturday, it just felt squishy at the middle base section of my rib cage, and a little across my left lung. I told mother about this strange problem the morning I started recovering for the ouch.

The night before, I bent over on the toilet, cringed, and groaned, because that didn't feel good at the time. I also did that a couple more times, because it seemed to loosten it up a smidge. Well, it took at least three days for the strange rubber squishy feeling there to go away. Mom gave me 200 dollars to put in the bank for my appointment.

Nobody would answer the phone for an hour, so I thought I would just make this easier for everyone if I just went anyway. This was to set an appointment, not go right on in, and screw up someone's scedual. I told the receptionist type person "I want to set an appointment,but the phones weren't doing it for me." and that it was about strange feelings in my chest.

Instead of setting appointment, she had me sit and wait. A couple minutes later, I go to see the doctor in question. She rubs my stomack, then the section under my ribs, and tells me I should try a stomack physician. I was confused, because I wasn't feeling it in my stomack. Never heard of it lasting for days in this way either. Well, I was to go down stairs for a blood test, and on the way out, this one guy in blue scrubs just snears at me as he walks by, and wispers "b***h" under his breath.

Later, the pain from the needle, and the blood help my nerves, and I got a cup of coffie. Just a moment ago, I went to get my pills, not knowing what they do at all. The guy infront of me drove 5 MPH on the 40MPH main street, all the way down two blocks.

We were both going to the walgreens, and all the way into the parking spaces, he was going as slow as possible, staring at me through his upper rear view mirror. He just kept staring at me. I yelled, because he went on through the parking lot, staring at me as he turned, turned again, and turned once more. I went in to get my pills, and one of the two women had this smurk on her face. She also wasn't very polight! What is it with me, that I just get seen and it's 'Lienda the b***h". If they can't deal with my looks, TOO BAD!

+8, for a short while, I would imagine.

-5

*Hug*

I am so sorry I will write to you today.