scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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idk what it is in moscow but im quite enjoying the -1 here

-8 The world continues to be great with the giant finger of God pointed at us. I know for a fact that Intel (the company that my dad works at) will lay off 10,000 workers after that report today. They haven't made the announcement but I know it will happen in the near future. I know after some bad news after dad's competitor AMD they laid off many of their workers. With my dad's age they will choose him first. My brother's company is continuing to fail as is my company. While I did do a commission piece, I calculated that I would need to do 2 commission pieces a DAY to make a sustainable living. That is physically impossible. I am lucky to get around up to 5 in a year. This by the way is a 5 year and that is sadly a record! Now my mom's brother might be dying. I have this scary prediction that my grandpa is going to outlive my mom and dad. That he is 90 years old and will outlive my family. That is just a nightmare. My dad has serious health problems and so does my mom. Everything goes wrong. I have been seriously pushing my starving art since 2008. Nothing is moving. My company on average makes about 2,000 a year because of the autism conferences and shows. While there is no show going on it makes absolutely nothing at all. None of the stores I am in really reorders much. This means my art isn't good enough to sell. I am as mentioned in earlier posts in a store called Ventures. I am doing the worst out of everyone there. Like I mentioned before I did the worst out of everyone at a holiday bazaar. I mean if an angel from the heavens didn't buy my prints I would have only made about $60-70. A kid made $200! Others sold hundreds worth. It was one person who made the booth. A single person. The Earth continues to move fine. Everything is calm. We needed snow tires and that cost $720. They said we also need regular tires so that is going to cost another $600-700. I have had my failing website up for over 12 years and we get an average of 1-2 orders a YEAR. I have another website that is a massive failure that no one goes on and its been up for 2 years. No one comes back to it and it has had some advertising. Nothing will save this family from hell.

-10, wish I was dead.

Agree with the number, not with the statement.

I wish I hadn't blown the interview...oh, and I actually am fat today. I ate so much/ But I'm not caring I guess....maybe tomorrow I'll kill myself a the gym (figuratively) though.

100% know how you feel

Dont really agree with her but guess I have to respect dissensions even when I don't understand them

As for me back up to a still a -7 its become more a a mental pain where as before it also seamed to be physical

Would really like to get sleep some time soon as well been 5 days now since I slept well

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Last night I got a $10 with the corner missing. The security strip was still in it, undisturbed. I went back to the star bucks this morning and gave back the ten, saying that I got it last night and no receit. I was telling the trueth, and I was being polight, if not emotionaly content also. I told her " thanks" and "sorry", because I gave her the ten back, but she gave me no reciet. I just said, I didn't get a reciet last night, so why do I want no receit again? That was annoying enough.

Then I step into the little line, and there was this Asian women standing in it. She looked at me and then made this huge, too obvious eye roll at me, which came across to me like "I'm better than YOU! *nose to the air*" I don't give a flying f**k how hotty the b***h thinks she is! I just wanted my God dammed coffie and reciet! I stepped outside and said "Same to you. If you're going to roll your eyes like that at people, do yourself in a mirror first!"

Then while I was driving I thought "Oh great! I bet the girl at the table next to her is paranoidly thinking. 'omg! What did I do to you?!"
Yeah, why do I diserve to keep being treated like that? WHY? I go about my business like anyone else in this stupid city!

-10.

10! Passed my classes with flying colors!! !!

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six. I'm really craving some marijuana. I won't have any for a while. And I just worked out so I'm super sore, have the classic rock jamming. And no weed. This sucks

I'm not sure. I feel kind of like I've been crying but I have NOT. I was in a good mood stimming a lot earlier & now I'm sort of thinking a little & things feel different to me. It's hard to explain but I feel like I'm starting to figure something out but I'll probably lose it before it comes to me

I still dream of her each night. Sadly, she's less and less nice in such as the days go on.

-10 from just waking up from one.

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I wasn't feeling that good anyway, but then a group that I identity myself with had an internet page get hijacked, and the endless hateful responses from people who I thought were civil and tolerant really f****d it over.
So much for turning the other cheek.

Oh man. I've been there.

Seems like a common thing. I'm probably ten years too late to feel it though.

To no one,

In the end, I don't care that the romance is gone (after all, I ended that), but the enduring friendship that was made over those several years, gone like an instant because the romance wasn't there. That just hurts. You knew me more than anyone [other than my mother], and I [thought I] knew you more than anyone (as you said). But O well, you burnt the bridge down, and I don't think it can ever be built back up; actually, I know it cannot, no matter how stupidly nice I am.

I'm wearing a garlic clove from here on, to ward off the vampires in human skin.

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