Two different things at the same time so two numbers:
+5 : Just got back from a friend's place - someone who's been super busy and has lip-serviced the idea of us collaborating on some music projects for a long time but it hasn't happened. We got a really solid foundation for a tune down and I have a feeling if we can keep this up (seems creative chemistry is working pretty good for the time being) we could be twisting out new tunes under an alias somewhere on Soundcloud and have it be pretty good. Glad to be back on with music again .
-5 : Went to Taco Bell drive-thru when I left since I was hungry. I let another motorist in front of me from the parking lot. Actually I found out - cute girl, lots of witty/geeky bumperstickers, blasting some kind of cross between hardcore metal and dubstep and telling the window guy how much he needs to play Skyrim. I laughed for a second because I was like "Damn, a woman after my own heart" and then I realized - people like that simply don't exist on my social island and likely won't at any time in the forseeable future. As hip as I might be on that level I'm technically half-geezer being over the 30 mark, I work and live with straight-laced people who can't relate to that stuff and even my peers were maybe five or six years short of that next generation and music-wise were still very poppy/conservative in their tastes. Had to remind myself again there's no God, no higher power taking a giant cigar-cherry to my heart deliberately, and that most of these similar NT's are no doubt stuck in similar situations with people its not clicking with half the time - ie. the world kinda puts us all on our own islands and we see what we want passing at a distance far more often than we'll ever have it available within arms reach.
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The loneliest part of life: it's not just that no one is on your cloud, few can even see your cloud.