scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I hope you feel much better very soon, LiendaBalla.
I am very sorry to hear that, MissConstrue. *Hugs compassionately* Please be easy on yourself. x
*Hugs Luska compassionately* I hope you feel much better very soon. x
Please be easy on yourself, TenPencePiece. x

-3 Trying to deal with demons of my long dormant past..

-9 ...just to not write -10.

This year is is one of the worst I've ever known: depression, loneliness (as usual), unemployment and so on...
Who is the foolish guy who invented "Happy New Year!! !!" each 31st December Midnight..............

I hope you have a better year/months/weeks/days/whatever than mine!

+7
Classmates brought donuts and one bought me a moxie. Bad for trying to lose weight but I'll live. Pretty hot today but at least I know it'll get cooler over the rest of the week. Was hoping to record audio for videos I had planned, but found out my camera was out of batteries and just won't take new, fresh ones at all. Wish I had money for an actual mic.

+10

I'm not apprehensive about using images from Early 1964 for avatars any more.

+9
Got a job interview scheduled for tomorrow after I get outa class. Hoping it goes well. What would McDonald's really need anyone to qualify for short of physical labor?

-999 I am pathetic and destroy companies and lives around the world. I am scum. I am completely worthless as a so called "human being." I am lower than human. I know my art sucks. My only so called "talent." Not worthy I don't know why some people see potential in it. I am feeling depressed and realistic. There are many with depression who actually are in touch with reality more so than the average population. They are not too affected by too much fake optimism. I know the upcoming shows with my starve art will fail. I have destroyed many companies. I was once in an art gallery and it closed down. I was once part of a card company and it shut down. I am in another card company and its also failing. I am not part of winning team at all just the complete failure that is all I know. Also more stress mom is going into surgery on Wednesday. Everything's great in the world. World peace. God laughs. Ha ha ha. My pain is in my head. Everything is in my head. That means not real because it is in my head. I am the best realist in history of mankind because I see things as they actually are and it sucks for me but the rest of the world is coming closer to world peace in fact there is a basketball player named World Peace and he plays for the Lakers. I am crying and imaginary tears are running down my fat double chinned face. I am so fat that I break scales. I eat very little. My poisonous pills has made me gain 80 pounds. Luckily I don't have diabetes. I will soon but then I will stop all poisonous pills. Worthless hopeless. Now my brother is going to apply for SSI because he has autism as well. We are finding out the final results tomorrow to see where on the spectrum he is. I am scared that when my parents die I will be living on the streets and die on the streets. Mm, rats.

I am feeling about a 3 at the most today.

about a 2 right now. Feeling really lonely, wishing I had even one good friend to talk to and go and hang out with or a girlfriend to be affectionate with and receive affection from. I hardly ever leave the house because of my anxiety, it feels like Im in prison and this house is my jail. I feel ugly and just so damn different from everyone in the world right now. I still have hope things will get better but with every day that passes a little bit of that hope dies. I just wish I could rewind the clock back to my late teens/early 20s, which was the last time I remember feeling happy.

I guess I need to go and see a therapist or something but Ive hated doing that in the past, I seem to have real trouble opening up to anyone like that and so they tend to think Im wasting their time and my own.

Sorry to be a downer

edit: Wait is it on a scale of 1 to 10 or -10 to 10? If that latter then I guess Im a -8.

-8

+3
Some people really don't deserve their jobs.

-5

-5, I just had an anxiety attack......and I hated it a lot, and before that a hopeless cloud of depression decided to engulf me. I don't want to deal with that especially since I need a job and anxiety attacks and engulfing clouds of depression don't exactly help with that.

-10 I lossed a fire agate I was fond of. My dad isnt exactly easy to be around, I dont like where I live, (thats going to change though.)
In all honesty i just dont want to be here anymore. I need relief from the awful hell I always seem to be stuck in