auntblabby wrote:
Mountain Goat wrote:
Emulation mode? What's that?
Just looked it up. To be like someone else?
just like certain puters have emulation modes to operate older programs as though the OS were installed, certain of us aspies have emulation modes that make us function at least externally, like NTs. hollywood types like dan ackroyd and daryl hannah have the quality stuff, they pass at all times for NT. the rest of us struggle with our beta version NT emulators.
those two, particularly darryl hannah, make me so jealous... Anthony hopkins too.
I feel a bit resentful instantly - which i then curb.
to be that good at getting by and socializing and being successful which involves so much executive functioning, self regulation, socializing--how come they get to be able to do it?
It makes me almost about to think they're exaggerating to think they have Aspergers, but i immediately have to stop myself because that is how NTs already see even SEVERE AUTISTICS WHO ARE NON VERBAL oftentimes (like my son)! !! they act like u just spoiled the kid, if it were up to them, the kid would be 'normal' in no time!
so how can i think that about someone else? If someone is bipolar, mostly outsiders cant tell, only their inner circle and themselves know, and yet bipolar is still blatantly obvious compared to Aspergers...
so how can i expect uniformity with Autism presentation? but yeah i'm jealous and angry when i think of ASd people who, for instance, have tons of friends or a good education...
jealous of them, and angry at myself for not being like that.
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