scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+4

-10

+6 been feeling rather upbeat for a change today. Hope it continues

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Sister is here, raving like a loon. Apparently her hormones have gone into full-swing now and she keeps going outside and slamming our door and honking the horns on her boyfriend's car. Have a doctor's appointment tomorrow about something very important so I'm nervous too about how he'll act toward me. Its not the doctor I go to for therapy.

+2. Going for a CT scan tomorrow, and just tired of the BS and paperwork.

-5. I started thinking about hard circumstances in my life objectively, rather than being overly-Pollyanna-ish. Sometimes living in denial is so much easier, lol.

I'm not sure what's going on, but I hope you get some clear information and start to feel better. I think sometimes with medical stuff, at least in my personal experience, it's the 'not knowing' that is the hardest part.

-2 working hard to get out of this rut

5, I am feeling less depressed over the last couple of days for some reason.

-2 but no worse so better

-5

Worst score for me in months. I think my dog is dying, and I don't want that to happen. He had trouble keeping his balance while walking last evening, and he's now sleeping near the front door by the stairs - something he's never done before. When I came downstairs an hour ago to go to the toilet, he was awake, but he looked really tired. According to my father, he had thrown up. Hopefully, he's alive when I wake up, and my father will take him to the vet to see what's wrong.

I suppose even immortality lasts for only sixteen and a half years in dogs.

All excited when an attractive woman from OKCupid was interested in me... but she lost that interest and I got home to a dismissive "good luck in your search" message.

-4 and dropping like a brick...

easily -6 now... and still sinking. Oh gawd I'm getting depressed... this was supposed to be so casual and no big deal... why is it killing me??

-4

More drama between my sister, mom and dad, lots of it and her boyfriend made a bunch of threats to my dad. Wtf, I got really upset and ended up cutting again. I've grown back into the upset ,I wouldn't say I did traditional cutting I just scrap, scrap, and scrap with a butcher knife. I feel so helpless when s**t happens with my sister, she's always hated me and my dad goes into this mode where I can't do anything for him. I know the root of the problem is that I was born and my sister has always been jealous of me simply because I recieved more attention and to her stealing is perfectly fine when its from us. I never received an apology for my stolen DS, clothes or games nor did she apologize for stuff she stole from mom and dad. She stole from us again too, its a complicated situation, I can't really explain the full story here or to anyone but its upsetting.

My mom is trying to be the rational person but dad is (rightfully) upset because of my sister's boyfriend's threats. When everyone starts yelling I just hit myself or go to town with the knife. I know its bad but it makes me feel better. Sorry.

-10. losing it all

+3, I feel quite sedated....I went to the doctor for my cough and they gave me cough syrup with codeine in So yeah I cant imagine I'll be doing much today.

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+1

Tired, haven't done anything but some driving and mindless talking today, but my dog is still alive. After a visit to the vet, it appears he suffers from the combined effects of an ear infection and arthrosis, meaning he's in a lot of pain and can barely stand. He needs to sit out an episode of nausea, and then we can start giving him painkillers and antibiotics to treat the condition causing his ear to hurt and for him to lose his balance. It's funny, really, to think that many of the world's children have a lower standard of medical care than a 16-year-old dog who has bitten more people and dogs than anyone can imagine.

+2. General ambivalence.