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yeah especially the arguing was what drove you drink in the first place....I didn't even really feel like drinking but I was like 'f*** it.' and proceeded to get drunk 3 days in a row.
oh I see, I'd just leave for a bit and relax. but if you relax with binge drinking enjoy yourself. last time I drank I gave myself alcohol poisoning so I'm taking a long needed break from it.
Well I was fine with the just leave for a bit part.......but its the relaxing I was not able to do, hence the drinking so I could relax. I drank more than is healthy but I don't know if it was quite binge drinking kinda more or less I suppose though.
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yeah especially the arguing was what drove you drink in the first place....I didn't even really feel like drinking but I was like 'f*** it.' and proceeded to get drunk 3 days in a row.
oh I see, I'd just leave for a bit and relax. but if you relax with binge drinking enjoy yourself. last time I drank I gave myself alcohol poisoning so I'm taking a long needed break from it.
Well I was fine with the just leave for a bit part.......but its the relaxing I was not able to do, hence the drinking so I could relax. I drank more than is healthy but I don't know if it was quite binge drinking kinda more or less I suppose though.
Have you told them it bothers you? I wouldn't hurt to tell one of them that if they want to argue they can go it else where and that its upsetting you. not sure if it would do any good, but no harm in trying.

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Sweetleaf
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Sweetleaf
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yeah especially the arguing was what drove you drink in the first place....I didn't even really feel like drinking but I was like 'f*** it.' and proceeded to get drunk 3 days in a row.
oh I see, I'd just leave for a bit and relax. but if you relax with binge drinking enjoy yourself. last time I drank I gave myself alcohol poisoning so I'm taking a long needed break from it.
Well I was fine with the just leave for a bit part.......but its the relaxing I was not able to do, hence the drinking so I could relax. I drank more than is healthy but I don't know if it was quite binge drinking kinda more or less I suppose though.
Have you told them it bothers you? I wouldn't hurt to tell one of them that if they want to argue they can go it else where and that its upsetting you. not sure if it would do any good, but no harm in trying.

Yes I have told them that repeatedly, and I am suprised the cops haven't come yet...the neighbors must all be very patient...or never home though because no ones called in a noise complaint yet. My mom can be somewhat rational at times when her boyfriends not around...but her boyfriend just argues so there is no point unless you want to listen to him yell about everything you're supposedly doing wrong. I think from now on every time he's rude I will just tell him to f*** off maybe that would get the point across that he should stop being an as*hole. I'm 23, why am I dealing with a 43 year old spoiled brat? it's ridiculous.
He also thinks he can randomly do things for people and basically buy their friendship...and then if people mention he's being a jerk, he just brings it up like 'well I did that for you.' makes me wonder why he does things for people other than to try and manipulate them so he can justify being an as*hole.
lol sorry for the rant...but that is how I feel about it.
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yeah especially the arguing was what drove you drink in the first place....I didn't even really feel like drinking but I was like 'f*** it.' and proceeded to get drunk 3 days in a row.
oh I see, I'd just leave for a bit and relax. but if you relax with binge drinking enjoy yourself. last time I drank I gave myself alcohol poisoning so I'm taking a long needed break from it.
Well I was fine with the just leave for a bit part.......but its the relaxing I was not able to do, hence the drinking so I could relax. I drank more than is healthy but I don't know if it was quite binge drinking kinda more or less I suppose though.
Have you told them it bothers you? I wouldn't hurt to tell one of them that if they want to argue they can go it else where and that its upsetting you. not sure if it would do any good, but no harm in trying.

Yes I have told them that repeatedly, and I am suprised the cops haven't come yet...the neighbors must all be very patient...or never home though because no ones called in a noise complaint yet. My mom can be somewhat rational at times when her boyfriends not around...but her boyfriend just argues so there is no point unless you want to listen to him yell about everything you're supposedly doing wrong. I think from now on every time he's rude I will just tell him to f*** off maybe that would get the point across that he should stop being an as*hole. I'm 23, why am I dealing with a 43 year old spoiled brat? it's ridiculous.
He also thinks he can randomly do things for people and basically buy their friendship...and then if people mention he's being a jerk, he just brings it up like 'well I did that for you.' makes me wonder why he does things for people other than to try and manipulate them so he can justify being an as*hole.
lol sorry for the rant...but that is how I feel about it.
Its fine some personal catharsis is always good.

I think what's worse is hes twice both our ages and more immature than us, though I don't like being negative or judgmental.But, I was acting like that when I was 14 I won't be acting like that when I'm grey haired.

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Sorry for this terrible joke, by the way.
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you will be able to. be strong and fear nothing. don't let it make you unhappy.
“The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.”
+3 I have my desk top up and running I just have to download a lot of drivers and other things. its slightly annoying.
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Sweetleaf
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you will be able to. be strong and fear nothing. don't let it make you unhappy.
“The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.”
+3 I have my desk top up and running I just have to download a lot of drivers and other things. its slightly annoying.
Hmm it seems a little late for that...since I feel I am running out of strength, not just mentally but all this crap is effecting my physically to...I've lost weight and seem to have developed constant physical pain from being so tense. I fear I am going to freak out and cause harm to myself, others or destroy property and its not unfounded.........I already have hurt myself and damaged things when I freak out, and luckily have not managed to cause harm to other people but I've been close.
That along with everything else is making me very unhappy...I mean there isn't even anything to be happy about, I can't even enjoy my favorite activities, I can't enjoy spending time with people close to me because I either bring them down by feeling bad or trying to play it off as being in a fairly decent mood gets to be too exuasting and I can hardly force down food even if its something I really like...or I force it down and just end up feeling like crap because I'm too anxious to digest it properly. I mean I'm trying not to let it totally consume me but that seems to be getting more and more difficult.
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We won't go back.
you will be able to. be strong and fear nothing. don't let it make you unhappy.
“The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.”
+3 I have my desk top up and running I just have to download a lot of drivers and other things. its slightly annoying.
Hmm it seems a little late for that...since I feel I am running out of strength, not just mentally but all this crap is effecting my physically to...I've lost weight and seem to have developed constant physical pain from being so tense. I fear I am going to freak out and cause harm to myself, others or destroy property and its not unfounded.........I already have hurt myself and damaged things when I freak out, and luckily have not managed to cause harm to other people but I've been close.
That along with everything else is making me very unhappy...I mean there isn't even anything to be happy about, I can't even enjoy my favorite activities, I can't enjoy spending time with people close to me because I either bring them down by feeling bad or trying to play it off as being in a fairly decent mood gets to be too exuasting and I can hardly force down food even if its something I really like...or I force it down and just end up feeling like crap because I'm too anxious to digest it properly. I mean I'm trying not to let it totally consume me but that seems to be getting more and more difficult.
http://files.meetup.com/871966/EBOOK%20 ... defroy.pdf
please read this it should be helpful.

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