scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+3.

+9 ??

-7 ... resisting self harm. it hurts.

-10 really depressed...trying to motivate myself to finish organizing/cleaning my room at my moms house(I switched rooms recently), I am thinking maybe if the rooms not so messy it would be a little more relaxing. kinda want to go see my brother, but I don't think I am up for it today I'll be lucky if I can manage to shower and at least make a little more progress with this room switching project.

-2

+3 I'm alright in general, but currently worrying about the future ahead. Just feel like my brain has shutdown in that regard as I literally have no idea what I should be doing with my life as I have no area I'm passionate about. Even if I did, would I be able to handle the working world with all the stress, responsibilities, and most likely the ignorant idiots around me since that is the type of people I've had to encounter most of my life. The whole "ignorance is bliss" thing would come in handy at times like this I must admit. Maybe I'll go into the shallow end first via volunteering as there is nothing to lose.

It's hard to think of a number when you're thinking about killing yourself all the time..

I would have to say a 4. I'm not at my worst but all of my worries and stress about real life push the number down. I also have no idea what to do in my life and how it can possibly play out... They say Einstein was an Aspie, right?

+3.

-1.

I feel hints of happiness but I am intensely depressed, over-analyzing the horrible traits I have and just sulking in my own loneliness.

I was feeling somewhere around -4 earlier today, but I talked to my friend on skype for awhile and I"m feeling better.
about +6

+8

+1

-10, so this is what hell is like.........seriously I am so f***ing fed up with everything. Society sucks, the government sucks, the politicians suck, capitalism f***ing sucks, the economy sucks and thanks to stupid government policies half the world is in bloody ruins as well. Why don't they just get WW3 over with? None of this makes any f***ing sense to me. I've been wanting to let this out for a good two days now....so there it is.


I guess people are right I am an idiot for believing things can ever change or that a better society could exist, its more likely we'll just kill each other all off and do irreversible nuclear damage to the planet or something.

-7.5
A work friend bought my computer on an insurance claim just before losing his job. He's been back to work but he's delaying paying me the money he owes. All I ask is for the computer back until he actually pays for some/all of the bill and I even have a loaner to set him up with... we were supposed to meet today for either payment or swap for loaner... zero replies to phone or text.

Spit. If he hoses me (and the insurance company) I'm out... there's no way I can fight back from an ex-military guy who's a seasoned warrior. *sigh* I've tried to make this as simple and painless as possible (with no embarrassment) but this new silent treatment has me really scared.