scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

Post Reply New Topic

+1, that's better.

-3

-5, I am tired...but I don't really want to turn my lights off and lay in my bed not really sure why. I mean I have been using a night light since I moved to the basement room in this house since it gets really dark and considering I typically wake up repeatedly I prefer to be able to kind of see so I can get up without crashing into anything. But yeah problem is I don't sleep well with the lights on, i suppose I could watch a movie till I fall asleep and then if I wake up there will still be light from the t.v that's not great either but its better than the headache having the lights on would cause.

-10 I feel very depressed.

-8, do I have to spell it out to my mom I have severe depression and no self confidence? I suppose I will give it a try....she seemed perplexed earlier when we got in a bit of an argument and I was trying to you know end the arguing. I went and apololgized and she took me feeling terrible and guilty about 'ruining the morning' as trying to guilt trip her.

maybe I can say 'so yeah, I don't really have a sense of self worth so I tend to beat myself up when I feel I've done something stupid such as cause an argument....I just don't want her thinking I'm trying to guilt trip her when I get down on myself or anyone else for that matter then it just makes them accuse me of trying to guilt trip which in turn makes me feel worse for expressing myself so horribly that is the impression I give.

positive 0.5 .... very "meh" but ever-so-slightly on the positive side of life. Must be careful I don't get sucked into my aspie obsession of building a new computer just because I have cash in the bank!

must... save... for... lawyer... *grunt*

Was -10. But I've made a plan now and maybe I'll be able find someway to relax a little this week in the meantime. So lets say -8 for now.

-0.25 neither here nor there

+5

+4
Boyfriend went back home today...one weekend together is not enough.

-2. It's building up inside again. I want to let it out but I still feel like I can't. I've noticed this is kinda cyclic, like the first step in the cycle (next step is letting it out inappropriately).

-1

+2 good day

1. Wish I had someone to talk to. I'm not even upset about anything, just thoughts about the past making my mood ill again.

+4 realizing I simply will let others sincerely choose to become my friends rather, than going out of my way to gain one's friendship as, I've done so far..

-3.