scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-2. That was one very lame assignment attempt but oh well.

Yesterday I was a -5 but didn't come online. I was very irritable.

Today I'm a +1. I slept well and I'm feeling better.

-4

An idiot, I am.

Edit: Feeling better, but doesn't change the fact that I'm an idiot.

I wish to kill myself, not quite sure what number that is.

+2.

Today was different than usual. Something bad happened because I'm such an idiot, but the fact that I downed a litre of high content caffeiene had such a positive effect on me. I could actually be less anxious without alcohol for once. I'm still such a social failure of course, but at least it was easier, and actually got myself to post on this forum again for once.

Too bad the full-blown anxiety will likely return once I get mah beauty sleep. Hmm.... got to try this caffeine again sometime soon.

-20
I need help. I don't care if its someone shooting me or whatever it comes as. I need something.

7 because i have no friends no real life and i am spending my time on this earth on this forum because i dont have anything else to do.

-5. Sad. My life is going nowhere and I am no good at anything.

-9 Am so broken and I say stuff wrong, do stuff wrong, and shouldn't be here so I don't mess up others' lives any more than I already have.

-5, f****ing great

I feel kind of terrible yet I am trying not to let it bother me too much, potentially driving myself insane in doing so...I really don't know anymore.

A few months ago, was a pretty consistent -4,

Is now a pretty consistent +5 over the past couple of weeks.

I thought very little of myself, and thought very seriously that my being an Aspie would preclude a lot in my life that I'd hoped for. And I thought that, while nothing was all that bad, the things I want most would always be out of reach.

But after cutting myself a break, deciding to just accept myself and giving myself plenty of space to work with no pressure, I feel like I'm starting to slowly accumulate some solid confidence. I'm starting to believe that this time, things really are changing for the better in my thinking and my living, permanently. I'm just resolving not to get overexcited about it yet.

0. Need to pick that letter up again. All the partners are back in the office next week.

For the first time in a long time, I feel really good. I have been feeling like this for a week, and I wasn't sure if it would last, but I'm confident that this feeling is to stay now! I don't really know how to rate my mood or mah feels, as I feel quite different from what I'm used to, but as a wild guess I'll just throw out an eight. I simply feel good. It didn't just happen either, I worked hard on myself, did a ton of research on my issues, and took action to sort them out. I am in no way a completely changed man, but the changes which have recently occurred make a big difference in my life. Waking up has been a lot more easier, I haven't been beginning my days with a swear word before I even get out of bed and I am sure many people know how that's like to feel that way, I have more energy and relaxation, and many people in my life are seeming like really good people, they inspire me to be a better person, and I even smile just hearing their voices talk to me. I am finding much more enjoyment out of life and it is allowing me to feel more able to do things and without so much bother.. Life is just a lot more pleasant and I only see things getting better from here. I am so fortunate and thankful for everything.

Well, at this point in my life, I'm gonna have to say my number is undefined. Divide by zero, vertical line on a two-dimensional graph. There are way too many variables in my life right now and nothing is staying constant for long enough to put a definite number on. Depending on how things shake out between now and graduation day on May 19, the number could be literally anywhere between negative infinity and positive infinity. If it goes too low, it might even become a complex number, where I just start making up the imaginary part to make myself feel better about the real part...

+10 -10 back and forth damn brain