scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-7 and dropping... the legal system is beyond a total pain in the arse.

At this rate, I'll never get my kids.

-4

I need a big hug. I just feel inexplicably crap.

0.5
Enough said

I was +2 earlier which then became -3 because of some stupid little thing that caused so much stupidity I even cried a little...
Now I'm +2 again!

Got nothing to complain about right now.

+8

+3

+8

-5 or maybe lower. Lots of health problems, little support. People can be so cold. Really hope things somehow start looking up soon.

-3

Not again....

0, I am glad I opted to make a strong valarian tea with rose hips and red clover for flavor......as if I hadn't I'd probably be hiding in the corner trying to hide from the impending doom feeling, though if the feeling is actually indicating something sh*tty that is to come hiding in the corner would not help with any of the things it could be.

-10 I need to be held, never thought id say it but its that bad.

I suppose, like a pig in a poke

-3

-10
Lost my cool totally today, thanks to three differen reasons

-10.

I try, and I try, and I try.

It is never good enough, because it is never quite typical.

Caught the psychologist that evaluated my kid telling us and the school one thing, and my therapist when she called to talk to him about it something else.

My husband came home from Miama telling me all about getting drunk with is cousin and how much he wanted to f**k the bartender at the after-reception party he and his cousin treated themselves to. He spent $55 on alcohol and an undisclosed amount on tips-- after he gripes at me about spending money on groceries and a tamping bar ($37 5-foot piece of solid steel with a sharpened end for digging holes and a blunt end for getting the dirt packed in tight around a post-- I would like my clothes line to stand up straight as well as properly set the posts for the playground I want to build the kids; also I am going to need to tamp in fence posts and posts for a grape arbor in the future) (he doesn't like the checking balance to drop below $1000 and will get paid again the day after tomorrow).

Then he gives me a bunch of confusing signals about sex and THEN he b*****s me out about how it's not good enough and I am emotionally dead and horrible to have to live with, and how all his family was asking after me and he's so embarrassed after "that crazy stunt I pulled" (taking myself to the hospital after trying and failing to kill myself almost two years ago now).

I WISH I HAD BEEN SUCCESSFUL. I WISH I HAD TRIED AGAIN. I WISH I HAD DONE IT WHEN I WAS 19. I WISH I HAD NEVER BEEN BORN. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE ME!! !!

+5