scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+5

The affects of vodka wore off and I can finally eat.

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+8 After putting up with dial-up internet here is rural France for the last 8 years I've finally got a broadband connection. Yay! It was somewhat doubtful whether I'd get a strong enough (mobile phone) signal here (even the assistant in the shop was doubtful based on my address) but it turns out that by positioning my new wireless internet key at a certain point in my window I've got broadband. The added irony is that it is actually cheaper via this new provider than my old dial-up internet cost, so a double reason to be happy today. Cheaper internet subscription plus around a 1000 times faster.

Nearing the end of day 1592, going to give things five more days for now
Today, very knackering and I didn't even do anything, so, -4

4 today.

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Yesterday it was absolutely pouring here, and the storm drain outside my apartment was slow and water was starting to collect outside the doors of me and my neighbor. I called it in to maintenance, but because it stopped raining shortly after I'm worried that they might have just said the hell with it. Well forecast says thunderstorms today, tomorrow, and maybe Thursday, and I'm shitscared that my apartment's gonna start flooding. I'm down here alone, I have absolutely nowhere to go if that happens. I'm probably panicking for no reason but still.

Don't know if this a part of AS or something else but my stress levels stays high for days even after things like this get resolved. And it often triggers another wave of depression as well...

-3 Upset, and just plain worn out.

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0. I am alright, pretty neutral.

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I'm a bit down but my best friend really does love me. I might not have a romantic relationship with her but I'm very lucky to have her on this planet and in my life. It's different to my family loving me because she loves me purely because I'm here and not for evolutionary reasons. I have no expectations of her and no attachment. I'm just grateful that we're both alive. I will love her up to my final breath and I think she feels the same.

I'm a very flawed person who isn't easy to get into. Whatever loneliness I feel and no matter how much I am cut off from the rest of the human race, I've had this one piece of luck in my life which is meeting her. I can't be grateful enough or pay the universe back sufficiently for this one small grace I have,

-9. I feel stuck. I'm so burnt out I want to cry, but I numb out instead. My job is just madness lately, and my boss doesn't listen. Whenever I need just a hug, there's never anyone here. I'm angry because I can't take things in stride, and no one understands how f###ing hard it's been lately.

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{{{hug}}}
sorry it is two days late.
I am at a much higher level than for a long time due to the cessation of broken humerus pain.
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