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+5. I should never forget that sometimes, being bold pays off

+4......... eh, I feel happy enough.

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- - - loud is good if it is the right kind of loud - - -

-9999999999999 Well the world is great with God laughing at my family. I am 100000000% hopeless. Total darkness. Everything bad is happening to my family. As predicted ( I make predictions on my iPod every year about what is going to happen) and it reads, for my family it will be the worst year ever financially and health wise. Well here are all the things that happened this year (so far, I expect more bad things to come):
1. We had to call 911 many times. One is for my overdose (because of stress, depression and psychosis), Twice for dad (he dislocated his hip a few times after surgery... which by the way he still hasn't recovered from), and another for when I though I was having a heart attack. Turned out to be an extreme panic attack.
2. Like I said, dad had hip surgery in April and he still really can't walk. Oh by the way now he has back problems which will probably need to be operated on.
3. He had elbow surgery a few weeks ago and no improvement, actually got worse than before.
4. Currently my mom had surgery a few days ago (neck surgery) and she was fine the first day and each and every day after that its been getting worse. Now she can't talk, can barely swallow, and can't have solid foods. She had to be rushed to the hospital yesterday because she felt her throat closing (which can kill you).
5. Mom had a major infection in April which nearly killed her if she waited a few more days and had a temp of 105.5.
6. Its very likely that she will get infected again because she has MRSA.
7. Our car already is falling apart and needed several MAJOR repairs this year. One repair alone was $1,200 and that was with discounts.
8. Dad is talking more and more about retiring. He almost did this year but now its most likely next year which will push our family into poverty. He makes a good salary right now, but most of it will be lost once he retires. Also most seniors struggle with money and they just take care of themselves or at most themselves and their spouse. my dad would need to take care of a family of 4. My brother and I are disabled.
9. I developed Plantar Fasciitis which needs to be operated on because I tried all the other treatments which made it worse.
10. I have an impingement on my shoulder and can't raise it past a certain point.
11. Many, many house repairs that altogether costs many thousands of dollars with many more house repairs to go.
12. My whole family had genetic testing from 23andme and both mom and I have a high chance of getting breast cancer, and my dad has a high chance of getting Alzheimer's Disease and since he is over 65, he is already getting some symptoms of it.
13. Here's a prediction for all of you. Next year will make this year look tame in comparison. Hell awaits us.
14. There are other bad things that I am probably forgetting, only one good thing (possibly 2 if they follow through) happened this ENTIRE year.

-10 sorting thru grand parents stuff. Deciding who gets what, couldn't do it left after 2 hours. I don't want to go back keep getting asked if I would like this or that. Its stuff don't bring them back doesn't comfort. Just the content of a couples life time of work, kinda sad that they worked so hard to have so little in the end.

+2, I'm happy that my internet is back!

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Bracing myself, which is probably hopeless, or black and white thinking, but it is what I have to do.

5.

My brain feels like it's falling out of my head.

It wouldn't surprise me if I've stressed myself to have a tumor.

-9 planning what to do with the ashes.

-10 ambition gone just so tired all the time.

-4/5. Wow this day just hates me a lot.

+6. Boringness aside, I'm in good spirits.

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+2. A bit of a decent night to make up for earlier.

-3. Just feeling a bit bummed about various things.

0 - wish i could have a good relationship

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About a 5.5

I'm about to go to bed soon which will feel great after the 8 hour long night shift. Plus I just played Baldur's Gate for a little bit.

But tonight I have to see if the girl at work that I like that I think likes me back is angry and jealous about me saying another girl was cute to one of my coworkers. She seemed to not make a big deal out of it yesterday, she was still talking to me for a good while. Last night was her day off so today I'll get to see if she was dwelling on it at all. It makes me extremely anxious, I need to watch myself so I don't do that again but I'm surprised by how little she seemed to actually care.

I also ate some fried chicken from Royal Farms on lunch break(at 3 in the morning, lol) which has my body feeling generally crappy but hopefully this will have gone away by the time I wake up