scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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0 I'm kind of worried about some stuff at the moment. But I'm trying to get my mind on other stuff so I don't fall into a possible place I don't wanna be. Listening to some sweet tunes.

+5

sunny day
cooked perfectly poached eggs on toast for breakfast using my own special little way of preparing them
and Dianthus is online

+2

+3

-2

-2, maybe I'll go have a drink at the bar...might be able to afford a drink or two.

-7

-4

-3 Kinda a mix of upset at myself and anger. Wonder of what she really meant to me. And wondering how acting suicidal right now would be rather self-serving, though it does prove a point. She was always concerned when I was suicidal. Can't take that away from me. Also, stop reading this. Not you, you.

-10

I just parted ways with an Aspie fella that I was very close with. Being Aspie myself, well, for both of us to get so close was something in and of itself. I, however, in my naiveté thought that there might be less miscommunication issues and that our ability to be openly blunt etc. would be a good thing. Obviously not. What is really upsetting is that though it only happened a few times (not quite once a month in 5 months), he felt he did not need to try to work through the miscommunication, laid it all at my feet, and we bid each other ado. It really saddens me and hurts. I hate miscommunication of any sort, and for him to not feel that maintaining a friendship/relationship...well hell. Too much anxiety, work, overload...I get it...but it still hurts because I try very hard to bend over backward to make things understood...so anyway, I have come to the conclusion not to extend myself personally anymore. I even considered the option of either elective or selective mutism to assist in this decision, however, I have things I do that require verbal communication. I had really hoped that having another Aspie (besides myself) in my life would have been a longer lasting thing.

+8, because my lost new cat Nippy came home after 3 days, just when I had given up hope of ever seeing him again. He is an 8 year old rescue cat who has never lived in a home before - first 7 years as a stray then a year at a rescue centre, then he was brought home last week - and promptly escaped. Now he is living under my bed, with food and water en suite, until he acclimatizes. I was so happy to see him again. Thought I was hallucinating at first. Whole street is happy as they all joined in the search.

5 maybe I'm doing whatever I can to remain human..

I tend to keep quite close to 0 most of the time.

I guess now I'm a -3 though.

-7

I'm not so sure if I should go to the dentist today after all. My fiancé is overwhelmed with work, and his taking me to the dentist will just make him even more stressed.

2. I hate my current situation with a couple of exceptions. They're the only reason it's not a 0.

+10...took a climb upwards by realizing a few things and self-confidence returned. Thank goodness my -10 did not stay there. Always trust your gut...at least for me...seeing things as they are is the best cure for me.