-6. We just found out that one of my SO's best friends only has a three to six month prognosis. He's in his late thirties and going through cancer for a second time. I have always admired him because he was so funny and engaging, and was very accomplished in his chosen field.
-1. I can't trust myself to interpret social situations correctly anymore. And the people who can interpret them loud and clear keep mum about it and never explain it to me, like it's a taboo topic to talk about or something. And I'm left with a neverending need to talk to people about things and get feedback.
-5 The sadness will pass. It always does, eventually. It's just that at 58 I'm going through a very difficult time with the husband (and children) I never expected to have - and it's at times like this that I selfishly long to also have the support of a friend. A case of 'the more you have the more you want' and I should be thoroughly ashamed of myself instead of crying like a child.
Sorry to be a whining bore - but tonight I needed to use this forum to offload to someone, anyone, anywhere.
Someone has been spamming various forums under my name creating nothing more than enemies for me. I not too concerned though, I am used to rejection when I have done little wrong. Granted I have ruined my fair share of relationships with my own stupidity and I am not placing all my problems on the world or society but it sucks when something you have limited control over hurts you.