scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+1. Drained, and confused (as usual). Confusion is a familiar state, I slept well, and the week is over half over.

+1 made it through another day..

-10

I feel like I am taking advantage of my husband by asking him to drive me to my volunteer job. I am a bigger mooch than Alan Harper.

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Sick of it. Sick of the grief and loneliness that just follow me around.

Sick of fighting fears only to become more afraid.

Sick of it. The world can shove it. EVERYONE can shove it.

But, in reality, other than that my life is good.

-10 I was going to get better but in October I overdosed and was rushed into the hospital. I've been feeling scared, confused and alone since then. I deactivated my FB account and have since isolated myself. I keep trying to go on but all I want to do is sleep and never wake up again. None of my "friends" know and I doubt they but one. Feel stuck more than ever and unable to motivate myself. Suppose to see a doctor next week.

4, i'm alive.

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+3 glad to see MissConstrue back here on wp..

-2.

My vehicle is not running well. This is not a problem. I have a couple of good mechanics and the funds to fix it.

I was planning to take this weekend and take the kids down to see my relatives. Also spend some time socializing and working on the house that was my dad's with my (wonderful) tenants. I am not sure I want to take 4 kids, a dog, and a spouse ~100 miles in cold weather in a vehicle that is not running well.

Disappointment is not the issue. The issue is that I feel enormously relieved by the thought of making a couple of phone calls to say, "We can't come, the van isn't running right."

I should not be anxious at the thought of spending time with these people.

I should be anxious at the thought of breaking down on the highway.

I am sick and tired of being afraid of the wrong things.

-2 I'm sorry to hear of the many troubles and difficulties your dealing with BuyerBeware.

+5, pretty good for me

+1 feeling more inspired

+4 - Not bad considering how I've been feeling lately, my second job has been causing me a ton of anxiety and thankfully the guy I'm working for is headed-out of town for a few days so there isn't the looming possibility he will contact me with a new project or something and that kind of puts me at ease. Seeing as it is the middle of the month, my bills are paid but I noticed I need a new tire as one of them has a slow leak which I noticed this morning - it's always something... I haven't been sleeping well due to my sleep apnea and my heart rate is up today, that's always fun, I really need to get back to using my cpap machine...I did get up early though and got my grocery shopping out of the way so as not to have to deal with the hordes of weekend shoppers and can pretty much just say at home all weekend.

+4 I feel good I finally walked away from a job that was causing me major anxiety that I had for 16+ years but I do feel somewhat apprehensive about being out on the job market again at my age but I guess the old saying "no pain-no gain" is applicable