About -3, I guess. But since I've undertaken not to turn into my mother, I won't let that stop me. It's scary, though. I've undertaken a whole new way of life - I'm almost a year into it - I've met people and mostly made a mess of it but I'm making some small success. But it's all new. I've never been lonely before. I'm terribly lonely now, probably as a result of letting people into my life for the first time. As a beginner, I made bad choices. OK, and some good choices, but they're not here. (10:30pm Sunday).