scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-8. Mood's down, no longer have a car, suicidal thoughts are very present. Trying to look for positives, struggling.

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Take this away, farewell my friends.

Hope is long gone, it was gone last year,

The fight is in vain, I never meant to hurt anyone, I never wanted to leave in so many tears and in so much pain...

-10.

I'm failing at life. My school-work is incomplete and out of my reach.

I want to die.

What is going on?

PTSD symptoms from being on the street and abused

More PTSD symptoms from being an idiot and being ill prepared for adult life and suffering more being on the street and abuse then I really needed too

Feeling like my autism makes me the r word

Feeling like I can never do anything right

Feeling I deserve all this abuse cause my dad said I did when I was 18 and again not long ago

Feeling like I should have ended it when I had a loaded easy way out

- 10 / 10

Wow...that's the depression talking. I can see it!! !

I've been abused a lot. I also have PSTD. I'm a survivor. Thank goodness- I guess.
I'm sorry. I go to CODA groups, but I feel they a little dogmatic sometimes, but it's better than nothing at all. Take care. Go watch a movie, take a bath, do something healthy for yourself. I'm sorry you feel this way. This too shall pass. As an abuse survivor I'm not telling you this just cause that's the cliche thing to say.

I try to stay positive and get rid of as much as unhealthy stuff as I can. I think I'm going to write some daily goals. Like they say in CoDa just take it one day at a time.

As for me, I need to take my own advice. I've had quite the pity party tonight. I'm not that chemically imbalanced, so i just need to quit focus on what's wrong and stay present and focus on making things better instead of focusing on things I can't control.
i need to be nice to myself. For someone who has gone through f****d up s**t, I'm a pretty darn healthy, functioning adult.

-6

hi, sly. haven't run into you in a while.

does sound like a dead battery, yeah. usually a new one isn't needed, they can be recharged fully at any auto parts store for a small (or no) fee. it not that, might be a problem with the alternator, the electrical component that helps charge the battery when the engine is running. it hooks up to the timing/serpentine belt that powers the AC, among other things. before i got mine replaced, my car would die pretty much every time it was turned off for a couple of days, even after jumping.

(of course, it didn't help that i left the headlights on all day when i was in classes... )

-9 I don't wanna try any more

3 or 4. But only because I worl hard to keep myself at that level.

Normally I am at 2, or 1.

2

I'm content, but leaning a little more towards the positive side.

-2. The last few days have seen a funny spike in anxiety, but as I'm not feeling one of my depressive slumps along with it, it strikes me as unusual, though I suspect I know the cause. That particular species of skin-crawling paranoia and a sense of dread is not very nice. Depression may liken in my mind as a hammer, but anxiety is itself a razor sharp scalpel.

^
That is a really beautiful metaphor!

-6.

-5 I guess

6. I feel like the antidepressants are starting to properly work. I've felt like exercising and doing stuff lately, which never happens.