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Dear WP friends, I'm always glad that unlike people in my real life I don't have people whom act condescending nor tyrannical..

Dear Mum,

F*** you. You were a sh*tty, neglectful, and abusive parent and I resent your continuing mind games. I cannot even begin to articulate how I feel after being told by you that the e-mails I send you about your grandchildren are unwelcome. You say that they make you feel isolated. You are alone because you choose to be alone - don't blame me for your poor life choices. You are a deeply sick and twisted human being and I pity you. I am angry that you can still upset me even though I am 35. I feel like I made a mistake making contact with you again. I talk to you out of a sense of duty - nothing more. I cut you off for the second time because of your constant dripping poison and now I'm feeling like third time might be the charm. I am relived that my children have never met you. Living in a different hemisphere works wonders as you'd have to remain sober and sane for the 48 hours it would take to get here if you ever wanted to visit.

From Me

PS: Thanks for giving me sleeping pills when I was 15. Epic parenting.

Dear Best Friend,
You are the most amazing person I have ever known, but I am really worried about you. You deserve so much more than this depression, and you need mental health treatment. I know the church means much to you, but I am worried you only became involved because you thought that maybe Christianity could cure your depression--maybe God would help. I'm sorry, but you need more than prayer and faith; you need CBT, support, and maybe even medication. You need to be able to have honest, nonjudgmental discussions about what you are going through. I know what it is like more than you wish to admit, and when you tell me you have started considering SI, I cannot handle it. You know that I went down that path, please don't do so yourself. I am so proud of all you have done, and even starting to seek counseling is not easy, but my heart breaks for you every day that you do not find the help you need.
I love you, darling.

Dear me,

Stop procrastinating on wrongplanet and just do your homework,

Hugs and kisses,

Me

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god, destiny, whatever,
just kill me please

noli ire

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Dear S.O. Stop trying to push me into other arms you might be able to sleep in the same house and see others on the side but that's not as easy for me. I know Its over but I will at least keep a proper front in public and in front of the kids. I at least try to show proper gentry, I don't bash you or run you down I state to the one that know its a serration by mutual consent. I don't bash you I could some time I think I should show the world you shortcoming like you do mine, but I am and will try to be bigger than that. Just so you know I have met two women how are interested but everything has its time and its not the right time yet. So back off I have enough to deal with, without the extra drama. You make me hate life, I will be glad the day this is all done but if you're trying to drive me mad you do a wonderful job at it heck you have me to the point where I can't sleep and no drug will knock me out. Thanks for showing me the dark side of human nature when I do find the right one I'll know how much to appreciate it.

If its not soon soot me.

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why?

I'm sure that my instinctive need for intense privacy has just chased you away.
I'm sorry - it's not a choice for me. I just unthinkingly do it. It's instinctive and it's a large part of my nature. It's not something that I can change.

It's probably been made much, much worse because I have been so open with you so far because for whatever reason this is the only time I have ever been able to be with someone - evven when it has been hard for me. And you probably have absolutely no idea of how many years it takes for other people to get to the same point that you did so easily within a month.

You know that I am not NT. Please stop judging me by NT standards - because I know you did when this happened.

And I find it interesting that you accuse me of not trusting you when the exact opposite is true, I have trusted you with things that I would nobody else.... in reality I think it is you who does not trust me because your behaviour has demonstrated that multiple times. Either that or you don't have enough self-belief. In truth it is probably both.

And that conversation you brought up was too soon - you are trying to control something that simply isn't controllable, and thinking you can control it is just a logical fallacy.
If you don't have the confidence to take the risk and just see what happens then you shouldn't be doing it - it really is that simple.

I know it's a lot to ask that you try to understand something that you can't relate to but I do the same thing all the time with you.
I guess it's better that this happened now rather than later - it would have been much worse if it was later.

I like you. And I'm going to miss you a lot. You're a decent person and that is not something I say often.

To ALL the men who use women only for their sexual gratification by the combination of innuendos, flattery, sweet talk and feigned friendship - I pity you, it must be a terrible life to be governed only by your lower head and the rise of testosterone.

Dear Joel,

I wish I could tell you how much I really admire you. Since I was 17 I wanted to be like you. When I first saw you on my television facing the team that wouldn't give you a chance I felt so proud of you. Plus I thought you were cute.

I was so glad when I finally got to meet you this year. You're a really nice bloke, I don't know how you've managed to remain single for so long! You seemed genuinely interested in me, and while I thought it was unnecessary, your gratitude to me for supporting you was really touching. Every time you said hi to me at training, when you took the time to have a chat at the reserves grand final, that all really meant a lot to me. I hear people say all the time how when they met their heroes they were disappointed. You've never disappointed me.

I was so thrilled for you when you won the B&F. You really do deserve it. You work so hard and you never get much acknowledgement for it. That's why I want to be like you. Because you keep going no matter what anyone else says. Even when that other team dumped you without giving you a game you kept going and became one of us. That's so great.

I bet you can do better. I bet you can win it again. I remember when I told you I thought you would win the B&F this year - at first you laughed, but I can still remember the look on your face when I said I was serious. I bet that's the same look you'll have on your face when I tell you that I know you can win it this year too. I know you'll try.

Anyway, I just wanted you to know how happy you make me, and how much you fill me with hope. You've thanked me three or four times for being your fan, but I've never said thank you to you.

So thank you.
Kezzstar.

Paula,

You intimidate me. I want so badly to approach you, to ask you to get some coffee with me, but my attraction to you breeds intimidation and makes this nearly impossible. I’ve spent the better part of a month waiting for the “perfect time,” and I feel as though I’ve already waited too long and squandered my chances. I know that you know me mainly as a comedian, so it may be hard to grasp that it’s genuinely difficult for me to function in social (especially romantic) situations, but these are the polarities that I have to live with and am trying to reconcile.

I can’t use a word as big as “love,” because I just don’t know you that well, but I do know that I feel a genuine connection to you and have not felt this way about a female in a very long time. I’m at a genuine loss as to what to do, so I suppose I’ll just continue to sit and wait for the perfect moment that doesn’t exist.

(names changed to protect the innocent)