scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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5... a bit nervous about my course, my parents' intolerant way of expressing their opinions, and my books I'm writing (I just finished writing and revising one and am working on others), and I don't know how to calm down; I took my meds including my panic pills this morning but I still wish I could feel better.

I am a well in this life. That's what I've always been.

When people need water, metaphorically speaking, they come to the well.

The well is a well no longer. The well is poisoned, contaminated, fallen in. Fracked. The water table has been lowered; the well is dry.

Nothing left to give. Nothing. Not to my husband, not to MIL, not to friends or extended family. Not even to my kids-- maintenance (food, shelter, structure, safety, sanitation, do-your-homework) is taking everything I have.

The best thing I can give right now is SILENCE.

You. Good God, you. You're so angry about these walls I've built. So derisive. So determined to point out that I built them, like it's some kind of personal affront to you.

Do you remember all the work we did to tear down the last set of walls I'd built up?? Do you remember why I built them??

DO YOU THINK YOU MIGHT HAVE ANY CLUE WHY I BUILT THEM TWICE AS HIGH AND TWICE AS THICK THIS TIME?? ??

+3 I was in a terrible mood but coming onto WP is pretty fun

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-5, after yet another disheartening job hunting session.

-5 getting rid of my car today . Been sitting in my drive way for two years but by keeping I guess I avoided reality:(

-8 worried people are tying to get me banned by suggesting I'm a rapist

You're not a rapist....so stop thinking that other people would think you're a rapist.

-5. Feeling lonely and ignored.

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-8. Feeling ignored, worthless, like no one cares, and all that.

3... Feel uneasy a week in after my psychiatrist increased my antidepressant dosage. Energy levels are all over the place and on top of this my body has yet to adjust to my switch to veganism. Years of therapy make me careful to make note of mood swings but this was kind of a bad time for any doctor to mess around with my head-chemicals. Also anxious about October, when I re-start my uni studies.

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Seems like the world keeps telling me things that I CAN'T do, but never tells me things I CAN do.

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