scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-? I have no idea what number but I do know it's pretty high on the negative scale.

I don't really know what I want to do in life, I hate the area I live in, I feel very lonely, I also just feel scared of just about anything unknown to me, making friends has been a hard task, etc. I feel I'm just slipping into the darkness of the abyss and there is nothing I can do about it.

I just have no energy for anything and lost pretty much all motivation for living. I can't figure out who I am, I just feel like a lost child in a incredibly huge forest and I keep circling back to the point where I started and no matter what I say or scream no one hears me.

-9.5, although I really don't seem that way in person due to the numbness - makes it easier to shove that back and put up a facade for people to see. Still thinking everyone would be better off without me even if they don't think so. It seems like emotional connections will only be temporary, and I have nothing else to offer

I didn't realize in your post that today would be your birthday. Happy birthday Sly! I know you probably aren't in the mood to hear it but I wouldn't want you to go the whole day thinking no one cares about you!



I put up a facade for everyone as well. I tried keeping it up on this site too but I guess I finally broke. The only thing I know to do right now is give you and Sly a Patamon hug(I don't know what species Patamon is.), will you accept my hug?

Yes, I will, and I'll give you a big dragon hug in return WP is the only place I feel I can truly be myself (mostly, anyway, which is a lot better than anywhere else).

And Sly279, I wasn't sure if I should wish you a happy birthday, or if that would just make you feel worse. I really hope your birthday hasn't been entirely miserable, at least. It would make me happy if you had a truly happy birthday, but I completely understand if "not entirely miserable" is the best you can really hope for.

you offer lots of folks comfort on WP. you deserve credit for that.

I am feeling a neutral 0.
Neither miserable or happy.

I would probably be more of a +3/4 if I was warmer and felt more physically well.

So I am going to turn the heating up, add more clothes and eat something healthy or satisfying.
Hopefully this will boost my mood.
Let's see if I can knock this mood up a notch or 2.

a 4? or a 5. I have been feeling weirdly ok, not great or awful really.

6

I don't really have much of a number to give anyone, mostly because I'm just a small hassle to most people. I'm pretty much the pepperspray of human-human interaction.

I started looking into burnout. With everything that's been going on these past few years, it only makes sense that I am still suffering through a burnout. I've tried to squeeze everything out of myself and yet it got nothing. I don't expect anyone to reply to this, considering nobody even batted an eye at my last post. But consider it, maybe it's the same thing. I mean, it's unlikely, but it's worth a shot.

7

-9. Same stuff I've posted about recently, I probably don't need to repeat it again. I really wish I'd just die from something that isn't my own deliberate action

(((d&d)))

-20. I don't even know why, I'm just suddenly even more depressed than I was. I'm so tired of living, I really don't want to have to do it anymore (but don't have the energy/motivation to actually do anything about it)

Solid 8.5!

I'm having a Granville Island Winter Ale right now - my fave seasonal beer, and just made a couple of Quality posts in two threads here on WP that I'm quite happy with. Very few will read them, but I don't really care, I liked posting them.

Also, some health things are finally on the right trajectory so life should continue to get better.

8

7.5 or 8. I am not doing super good, but rather just good. If it wasn't so darn cold in Germany right now, it could be a 9.