scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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that makes sense, thanks fishy.

@CoyoteKat, thanks for understanding.

-9

5

~6 rn, probably more like 8-9 tonight.

Kind of annoyed, somewhat amused at the moment. I helped my friend do some renovation work & others on this project are doing things completely out of order and messing things up at every turn. Everything is painted already and the owners have furniture getting delivered tomorrow etc and someone decided to rip out and replace a bathroom fan.. which means they want me to go repair the drywall around the edges of the new fan. That's a multi-day process (due to drying time) plus paint etc. Sometimes I wonder how some people who seem too stupid to breathe got so incredibly wealthy. It's rather comical, really. I won't let it ruin my day. I'll probably go help my friend fix it and have a laugh at others' incompetence.. again. Maybe someday they'll learn to make all the holes in the walls at once, fix them at once, and then paint everything.. but probably not. I think these people are the type that have so much money that they never have to learn to do things ideally because they can just throw more money at the problem until it's fixed. *shrug* not for me to care about, really, I'm just doing my friend a favour.

But tonight? Tonight I have a free ticket to go see Run The Jewels (hiphop, never heard of them) and the headliner is Lorde - which should be good. She has a few good tracks and a good attitude, so I'm expecting her show to be a good one.

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

-9 and still rising!

I'm still unsure on how I can keep a decent humour, even if it's dark. But crispy Christ on a stick, I am just absolutely dying. I'm overheated, my brain can't keep up and my body just wants to lie still for a while. I only got four hours of sleep last night.

-9. Rough day. Among other things, I really wish people would a, say what they mean and b, not try to go back and debate semantics to make themselves feel better about what they just said or to try to convince me they didn't really say what they just said. Ugh, I hate communicating. I'm way too good at both misinterpreting and being misinterpreted.

Also still wish I would just die. I'm not as physically exhausted as I was even a wesk or so ago, but I'm still exhausted in every other way. I can't bear the thought of living another 50+ years like this. And I'm such an inconvenience and a burden - with all my appointments and stuff, my parents have to take off work to get me to them, and the bills for it all continue to increase, and I have nothing to give back in return - no skills, no talents, no job so no money... and I have to come to terms with the possibility that I never will. And if I never will, what's the point? All the time, money, etc. for what? Nothing. Yet I'd feel too guilty about it to go through with killing myself, even if the only thing that would hurt anyone is an emotional connection to me that's only going to be temporary. Some terminal disease or chance occurance needs to hurry up and take the decision out of my hands.

6

Dragonsanddemons

I’d miss you

Fox hugs

Again for people like me all you have to offer is companionship and kindness which are things you have lots of.

5

1

It's slightly amazing what your body can subject you to, especially when it throws you in for a 10 hour sleep out of the blue. Now, I'm not magically better and I know what I need to do. But I can say that I'm not physically exhausted. On the downside, my belt snapped.

-10

6

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I feel since I became an 'adult' I hover around a stable 7-8. Before I would fluctuate between a 0-9 pretty rapidly and in a rather alarming fashion. Today I am a nice solid 8 albeit a bit on edge.