Dear Saint Alan,
Why in the world did you leave me halfway through this adventure of child-rearing?? I know I shouldn't be upset-- it's not like you had a choice in the matter. If I ever wondered (I didn't-- I know, if you were going to kill yourself, you would have finished the dishes and let the dog out first), the coroner's report made the fact that you died a natural death quite clear.
I'm just SCARED. I want my DADDY. Now I'm the Asperger parent raising the Asperger kid, and I really wish you were around to relate to. I wish, profoundly, that I could call you up on the telephone and ask you questions. One Grandma has permanent rose-colored glasses, the other Grandma is completely senile, and your sister didn't think about it enough to remember just exactly WHAT you guys did.
People haven't even gotten around to writing books about raising ASD kids specifically for ASD parents. Lots of them think it's impossible. You guys did it, and you did a pretty darn good job, before anyone even knew it was a subject for study. You really were amazing, and ahead of your time. I wish you were here so I could tell you that.
I wish that Young Mister Edison was going to benefit from having you for a role model. Yeah, I know-- "If wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets." Mom used to get so flustered when we'd sit there and talk about plans and wishes... Jeez, I'd give my right arm for a cup of coffee with you guys right now. No s**t Sherlock.
Oh, well. Such is life. I reckon you taught me enough common sense that I'll figure it out. That doesn't make me miss you any less right now.
Love,
Boo
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"Alas, our dried voices when we whisper together are quiet and meaningless, as wind in dry grass, or rats' feet over broken glass in our dry cellar." --TS Eliot, "The Hollow Men"