scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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About 6... and I'm anxious, so counting down from that.

-5

6

My mom provoked me into having an anxiety meltdown.

-8

1.74

7

-2

Thinking about my (very low) chances of ever getting a job again, even as a janitor like I used to be. I want to do something useful, but my options are so limited by transportation and my memory issues and selective mutism. And now I've got a year-long gap in my employment record, which is apparently one of the worst things to have short of a criminal record in terms of getting hired.

3, I suppose. A nightmare woke me up a few hours ago and now I can't get back to sleep. I need to start getting ready for work in less than two hours.

-9 to -10

Joy, where are you?
I may die soon. I'm trying to hurt myself.
It's my birthday....

-10

Got lectured at work for something I didn’t do and treated like five year old probably cause I’m aspie and people with autism are as stupid as child they think

Pants ripped

Another lady went whopping 3-4 days aftering breaking up before finding a new bf
Do they just have a waiting list of guys.
Number 65 you’re up

can you celebrate your birthday at all? maybe have your favorite flavor of ice cream tomorrow? the world is better with you in it.

0.

My throat hurts and my ears hurt and I generally just feel kinda crappy. Had a migraine all day. This week has felt so, so long. My last week at my job is next week... it feels like an eternity away. I'm sad too though. I like working, and I like feeling like I'm productive and that I'm a key person in my role, and I love the organization I work for. But all's fair and love and war, I suppose.

I called Cahoots (crisis community workers) because I cut myself because of the noise at camp. I'm at Hourglass now. I've been here for hours talking to different counselors here.
I fell asleep because I was exhausted.
He's been trying to talk me out of dying and about letting love and light touch my heart. I've found I want to die because almost everyone takes my joy from me and how I barely get to own it. He said my heart is like soil that has rocks in it.
It needs plowing and light for the seed to grow. And, I need to let the light shine in me when it does.
Though right now I'm feeling too much.
Overwhelmed.
The thought of death keeps calling to my mind as if the process of doing that to myself would save me from hell.

No, I haven't been kind to myself in the regard of getting cake or ice cream for myself.

what's stopping you from allowing yourself that little bit of joy?

I don't have a lot of money, and I think I'm not going to live tomorrow.