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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:



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05 Sep 2019, 1:09 am

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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


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My older brother once told me I was going to be an abusive father. But who is the one who called his son a “ret*d” and a “p****” as well as physically harmed him? My chances of ever becoming a father are practically over but my older brother was wrong about me.

it's nearly impossible not to be abusive when you're very angry.



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06 Sep 2019, 2:43 am

moral of the story is don't be very angry.



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i'm told i have a lot to be thankful for, and intellectually I know it to be true, but i can't feel it. I'm lonely and isolated, struggling to form almost any sort of meaningful relationship with anybody after the death of my beautiful wife, earlier this year. I a small number of very old friends, exclusively online, and i kind of go through the motions of conversations with some of them them, same with what family is still talking to me, but whilst it's advised to talk and open up I feel guilty about sharing my misery, people don't need it, they have issues of their own. i work, but never really joined in with what i regard as small talk, and consequently isolated my self to professional matters. I would say about -3 or -4, but i'm not ready to give up. Slap on that fake grin and grind through this s**t one more time.



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06 Sep 2019, 3:25 am

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moral of the story is don't be very angry.

you can't stop your emotions and they aren't right or wrong. they just are. but, as someone who has been very angry, i know it's hard to use all of that energy positively. back then, i picked on my cat. i had an accident and broke my foot. i antagonized (and felt completely justified) coworkers and ended up having to change jobs. on WP, i see some angry people taking out their anger on folks who are trying to be helpful. it just spills over. it takes extreme self-control (that may not exist anywhere although meditation helps) to do anything else.



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i'm told i have a lot to be thankful for, and intellectually I know it to be true, but i can't feel it. I'm lonely and isolated, struggling to form almost any sort of meaningful relationship with anybody after the death of my beautiful wife, earlier this year. I a small number of very old friends, exclusively online, and i kind of go through the motions of conversations with some of them them, same with what family is still talking to me, but whilst it's advised to talk and open up I feel guilty about sharing my misery, people don't need it, they have issues of their own. i work, but never really joined in with what i regard as small talk, and consequently isolated my self to professional matters. I would say about -3 or -4, but i'm not ready to give up. Slap on that fake grin and grind through this s**t one more time.

(((widower))) - that's wrong planet-speak for a virtual hug.



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06 Sep 2019, 3:43 am

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auntblabby wrote:
moral of the story is don't be very angry.

you can't stop your emotions and they aren't right or wrong. they just are. but, as someone who has been very angry, i know it's hard to use all of that energy positively. back then, i picked on my cat. i had an accident and broke my foot. i antagonized (and felt completely justified) coworkers and ended up having to change jobs. on WP, i see some angry people taking out their anger on folks who are trying to be helpful. it just spills over. it takes extreme self-control (that may not exist anywhere although meditation helps) to do anything else.

in the past i have done things i'm not proud of. having had people like me with insufficient self-control be very angry at me despite my best efforts to do what they wanted me to do, i made a determination i would not subject anybody else to that.



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07 Sep 2019, 12:49 pm

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Marknis wrote:
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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


The hip-hoppers in the sh***y culture I live in love Lil Wayne and they think rock music of any sort is “Satanic” so that’s where the stupidity of them thinking I worship Satan (I don’t believe in a devil) comes from and I had no idea the clothes I wore were “skater clothes”.

I was indeed referring to you and even if it was a positive suggestion I can’t consider it as an option. My musical dreams are dead and I am turned 31 but things are still the same state they always are for me so the only conclusion I can draw is that change is impossible.



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07 Sep 2019, 1:00 pm

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funeralxempire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


The hip-hoppers in the sh***y culture I live in love Lil Wayne and they think rock music of any sort is “Satanic” so that’s where the stupidity of them thinking I worship Satan (I don’t believe in a devil) comes from and I had no idea the clothes I wore were “skater clothes”.

I was indeed referring to you and even if it was a positive suggestion I can’t consider it as an option. My musical dreams are dead and I am 31 so it’s too late to change anything in my life since I missed out on the milestones I was supposed to have achieved in my developmental years.


I'll be 31 starting medical school if I manage to get in, it's never too late for things. I did most things in my life later than "normal." I think it's okay to do things at your own pace. Of course, if you don't want to, that's perfectly fine too. Just pointing out it's not a bad thing to do things on one's own time sometimes.


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07 Sep 2019, 1:54 pm

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Marknis wrote:
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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


The hip-hoppers in the sh***y culture I live in love Lil Wayne and they think rock music of any sort is “Satanic” so that’s where the stupidity of them thinking I worship Satan (I don’t believe in a devil) comes from and I had no idea the clothes I wore were “skater clothes”.

I was indeed referring to you and even if it was a positive suggestion I can’t consider it as an option. My musical dreams are dead and I am turned 31 but things are still the same state they always are for me so the only conclusion I can draw is that change is impossible.


Why let those people hold you back? Why allow them to become an excuse for not trying something? I don't mean just with this suggestion, but more generally. If those people have contributed to ruining some of your life, why give them your whole life?

Not everyone who disagrees with you is a detractor. If someone is choosing to make a mistake, one would expect their friends to advocate for a different path. I get the tendency towards assuming the worst, if you've largely been surrounded by hostile and uncaring people it's difficult to believe that other people might have anything but the worst of intentions. But carrying that attitude ends up poisoning future relationships with people, it's self-defeating and kills potential friendships before they've even budded.

It can be very difficult to break out of self-defeating behaviours, but what other option does one have, if they'd like better outcomes in the future?


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funeralxempire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


The hip-hoppers in the sh***y culture I live in love Lil Wayne and they think rock music of any sort is “Satanic” so that’s where the stupidity of them thinking I worship Satan (I don’t believe in a devil) comes from and I had no idea the clothes I wore were “skater clothes”.

I was indeed referring to you and even if it was a positive suggestion I can’t consider it as an option. My musical dreams are dead and I am 31 so it’s too late to change anything in my life since I missed out on the milestones I was supposed to have achieved in my developmental years.


I'll be 31 starting medical school if I manage to get in, it's never too late for things. I did most things in my life later than "normal." I think it's okay to do things at your own pace. Of course, if you don't want to, that's perfectly fine too. Just pointing out it's not a bad thing to do things on one's own time sometimes.


It’s not so much that I think it’s a bad thing but that it feels impossible for me. Whenever I try socializing at my age, I fail to make new friends or even get a f*****g coffee date. I try to practice my guitar but I still can’t do guitar solos or songs I wish I could play if they weren’t so frustratingly hard. I don’t even draw anymore because I got stricken with analysis paralysis with all the requirements needed. I should’ve killed myself back when I was 17 and the dreams I hoped for fell and smashed on the ground.



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07 Sep 2019, 3:29 pm

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Marknis wrote:
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Someone told me I should become a rapper. What a f*****g stupid idea. Oh yeah, I want to be friends with people who call me “fa***t”, think I am a “skater devil worshipper”, and claim only God can judge them. :roll:


I've never called you a fa***t, and wouldn't judge you if you worshipped the devil or skateboard. Not all rappers wanna be Lil Wayne. Unless you're referring to me suggesting it 6-8 weeks ago, in which case I certainly wasn't suggesting it as a negative thing, I was suggesting it as a viable outlet for expressing ideas and sentiments that are otherwise difficult to express. Music in general is a good outlet, but you had commented along the lines that you didn't think you could learn an instrument. Because it's a lot more rhythmic than singing, it's less important to have a good singing voice/ability to sing in key.

Further, someone making that observation, if they're a fan of hip-hop wouldn't suggest it to demean you, they'd suggest it because you've impressed them with your vocabulary or prosody or cadence or whatever. If they're not a fan they probably are being insulting and can foad.


The hip-hoppers in the sh***y culture I live in love Lil Wayne and they think rock music of any sort is “Satanic” so that’s where the stupidity of them thinking I worship Satan (I don’t believe in a devil) comes from and I had no idea the clothes I wore were “skater clothes”.

I was indeed referring to you and even if it was a positive suggestion I can’t consider it as an option. My musical dreams are dead and I am 31 so it’s too late to change anything in my life since I missed out on the milestones I was supposed to have achieved in my developmental years.[/q
I'll be 31 starting medical school if I manage to get in, it's never too late for things. I did most things in my life later than "normal." I think it's okay to do things at your own pace. Of course, if you don't want to, that's perfectly fine too. Just pointing out it's not a bad thing to do things on one's own time sometimes.


best of luck in med school - four of the happiest years of my life, surrounded mostly by folks whose goal, like mine, was to learn to be a good helper.



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-15 i dream of freedom


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I'm here if you want to chat Sly, ((hugs))

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