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10 Oct 2019, 8:08 pm

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I hate the bitter older women I work with. They make my job miserable.

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I’ve actually been told I don’t have time to figure out my life anymore since I am 31 but don’t have a college degree or a career. I have to figure out something or else I am going to wake up as an old man and still be miserable.

I'm sorry you feel that way. Maybe this is true. Maybe you won't meet anyone and you won't complete a college degree. Maybe it's not true and you will achieve those things. I just hope that either way, when you wake up as an old man you will be content with your life, and with the person you have been. It seems like you enjoyed that concert last week and I know there are things you like to do which make you happy. Seek those things from day to day, even if you feel that the future as a whole is too big to plan or control.

Hugs, Marknis.

I honestly feel like if I don’t have a long term partner before I become old, I will never be able to feel content. All my struggles would’ve been for nothing and I would have no victories to speak of. I would probably finally commit suicide to stop the suffering that never ceases. I’ve talked to someone who is 59 and he’s always rejected by women despite his best efforts. He’s said when he wakes up as an old man, he will pull the trigger on himself. Yes, I liked the music at the show I went to but I hate how I never have a girlfriend to share the experience with.

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11 Oct 2019, 7:55 am

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Had aspie lady at work tell me her plans then ask what my future is and I just said I don’t have a future. Cause I don’t.

My ASD assessment doctor asked me to describe my plans or goals for the future, and I said the same thing as you. I have no plans or goals. That doesn't mean I hate my life; I just take it day by day without trying to preplan or feel pressure.

I hope you can feel the same sense of comfort, knowing that day by day is OK. You don't need to have all the answers as your life unfolds.

I have no future as in I won’t be getting a career, I won’t ever have a relationship, so that als means no family. I won’t have friends.
So my life as it is today is same as it was 10 years ago and it’ll be the same 10 years from now. I’ll be working the same crap job and playing video games. That’s all my life is I have no future no point in living.
If i died tomorrow it wouldn’t matter

Awe crud , here i go again, okay okay , g.f. is not the beginning or the end , firstmost. And have no family ,and i am not suppose to be trying to be helpful , am no great speaker of words . Having said that ..... it is never to late to start driving towards a future .. it is the very thing that will increase odds for a person to make happenstance relationships . "Its the journey not the destination"
Is not just a saying, .Its a truism , just like change is the only constant .

Self talk IS important .. no degree, find a trade school might be within your capabilities . Something you might be able to tolerate . Something to get out and just do stuff . Just to make a buck . Develop work habits . Its a start .
Not everyone is a brilliant scientist or computer programmer. Certainly not me. But took info. From everything did to make a life work. My life, not somebody elses expectations . At the other end of life, trying to cope or understand concept of being a senior . And been run through the meatgrinder of life . Can say, i have , had a life . Even enjoyed parts of it .

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11 Oct 2019, 8:12 am

3, despite sore back from wrenching balky puter chair into position to do a remarkably cheap-@$$ed white trash repair to the busted cylinder on it that would no longer hold my weight up without sinking to the floor- i just chopped up the skirts surrounding the mechanism and squeezed them down into a tight little cylinder that i put in the skinny spot between the base and the top of the cylinder mechanism, got some surplus tape to tie it down into place, then tied a string tightly around it, and called it DONE! :mrgreen: now it supports my weight again without sinking to the bottom, and it didn't cost me one red cent! :lmao:

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11 Oct 2019, 8:40 am

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11 Oct 2019, 9:29 am

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now it supports my weight again without sinking to the bottom, and it didn't cost me one red cent! :lmao:

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11 Oct 2019, 10:04 am

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thank you

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11 Oct 2019, 2:53 pm

-10.I want to be dead already i am so sick of stress and anxiety. I feel like im being punished i cant endure anymore.

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11 Oct 2019, 3:04 pm

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-10.I want to be dead already i am so sick of stress and anxiety. I feel like im being punished i cant endure anymore.

PM me, April. I'm sorry you've hit this rough patch.

I'm about -2 today. Month #4 of tooth pain from a broken root canal and still waiting for an estimate.

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11 Oct 2019, 3:31 pm

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-10.I want to be dead already i am so sick of stress and anxiety. I feel like im being punished i cant endure anymore.

All i can say is that i really can sympathize ,, very often .... but in the mean time
Will try to offer this hugg......((( hugg )))
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11 Oct 2019, 3:33 pm

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-10.I want to be dead already i am so sick of stress and anxiety. I feel like im being punished i cant endure anymore.

Hugs. Anything we can do?

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11 Oct 2019, 3:36 pm

IsabellaLinton wrote:

AprilR wrote:

-10.I want to be dead already i am so sick of stress and anxiety. I feel like im being punished i cant endure anymore.

PM me, April. I'm sorry you've hit this rough patch.

I'm about -2 today. Month #4 of tooth pain from a broken root canal and still waiting for an estimate.

Awe cr_p tooth pain is easily one of the worst , sorry ... am not fond of doctors to boot.

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11 Oct 2019, 4:44 pm

Thank you so much guys, i'm just in an unfortunate situation work wise and blaming myself for it.
@Isabella i'll explain to you in detail when i have time.

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11 Oct 2019, 7:20 pm

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Still feeling like a burden, but my therapist mentioned a place that might work for me. I'd have my own apartment but would have assistance, which is exactly what I was after. Just waiting for this one to not work out for one reason or another, too.

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11 Oct 2019, 7:26 pm

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I can’t make any plans or set goals for myself. I am chronically tired, my mind can’t settle on a single thing, I always make mistakes that undo everything I try, and I suffer from extreme anxiety as well as analysis paralysis.

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