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27 Oct 2019, 4:54 am

-20 why am I not good enough. I don’t wish to live this way :cry:

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27 Oct 2019, 7:12 am

Not sure.

It would seem, like, a part of me gets it's wish granted; to become more alexithymic. :lol:

But this kind of alexithymia isn't like the kind that cannot distinguish between faces like prosopagnosia.

This is more, like, "I had a damn choice all this time, I just kept picking it wrong" and became semi-subtle as if everything went internally blurry because I've internally 'zoomed out'.
Though, I get lapses of 'zoom ins' and 'strains' since I'm still not used to this. Then I ended up not 'feeding' states that comes up on the right time and place, because I'm still severely inexperienced at this setup of a change.

Regardless...
I don't regret it. :mrgreen:

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27 Oct 2019, 7:17 am

IF i was in heaven, i'd feel like +100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

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27 Oct 2019, 7:50 am

auntblabby wrote:

Had felt a glimpse of that. It was crazy. It's nothing I could've imagined and ever felt before that.

A part of me always feels that, only knows that, and is essentially that...
A part of me I can always reach, like a toddler asking it's parent to carry and cuddle.

But, like any parent, this part of me deems I should not be spoilt and practically told me to focus at the lessons at school we call life. :lol:

The same can be true with everyone else.
That is, if, one figured how to 'communicate'. Or stumbled upon accident -- I sort of did.

But I'm sure, by experience; crying, pouting and demanding for it won't work.
And that's, how and 'why' people 'blame' God and 'curse' the heavens. Or the world. Or everything, really.
Cause they don't know how to how to tell their higher yet metamorphical version of their families/friends to lift them up -- so they blame them for not 'listening' or 'being there' or 'not giving what they want'.
It's like any communication issue, really.

And even if I had stumbled upon it, and experienced it.
Like in this very life time, with me and words themselves...
I suck at it. :lol:

And apparently, I had always suck at it long before I was born. :jester:

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27 Oct 2019, 11:45 am

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3.
Watching Neon Genesis Evangelion. Got money in the bank account. Could be worse? Could be better. I got an 89 on a f*****g bio test. f**k. :evil:

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27 Oct 2019, 3:19 pm

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I want to sleep so bad. I am always so exhausted and feel like I can't function. I wish I was different.

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27 Oct 2019, 11:56 pm

^^^are you insomniac?

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28 Oct 2019, 12:55 am

funeralxempire wrote:

cberg wrote:

Kiprobalhato wrote:

martianprincess wrote:

funeralxempire wrote:

-4.20

It'll be closer to zero if my brother wakes up and remembers to sell me some dope, but I'm not counting on that anymore.

Your brother sells you drugs? Idk why I find this so amusing and interesting.

my sister sells me drugs on occasion.

sometimes she just gives me weed outright when she feels generous.

I wish my cat would sell me weed, haven't got any siblings.

I'm pretty sure my cat plush Noire steals my weed while I'm at work and then munches out. When I ask her why she doesn't wanna play or even move she says she's stuffed.

Smart kitty ......!

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28 Oct 2019, 4:59 am

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28 Oct 2019, 8:02 am

auntblabby wrote:

^^^are you insomniac?

I tend to be, yeah.
But when I'm awake no matter how much sleep I get I feel like I barely got any. I think it's probably my poor sleep habits, but I can't force myself to fall asleep on command. Sigh.

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28 Oct 2019, 8:11 am

martianprincess wrote:

auntblabby wrote:

^^^are you insomniac?

when i try to read a financial prospectus, i tend to get sleepy. :idea:

mebbe if you try to do the most boring thing imaginable, you can get sleepy.

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28 Oct 2019, 3:43 pm

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No feelings left.

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28 Oct 2019, 5:27 pm

-2

Usually I'm not bothered too much by the fact that I'm always an outsider, but sometimes I really wish I could just find somewhere that I fit in.

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28 Oct 2019, 5:54 pm

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-2

Usually I'm not bothered too much by the fact that I'm always an outsider, but sometimes I really wish I could just find somewhere that I fit in.

you fit in here. you're a supportive and valuable WP contributor.

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28 Oct 2019, 6:08 pm

cathylynn wrote:

dragonsanddemons wrote:

-2

Usually I'm not bothered too much by the fact that I'm always an outsider, but sometimes I really wish I could just find somewhere that I fit in.

you fit in here. you're a supportive and valuable WP contributor.

WP is the one place I feel like I can pretty much just be myself, but I still get the feeling that I don't really fit in.

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28 Oct 2019, 6:10 pm

I don't "fit in," either.

But I am myself----so people have to "fit in" with me---as well as myself "fitting in" with other people.

If you want to know my opinion: You "fit in" just fine.

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