KenM wrote:
I don't consider my AS a gift, far from it.
Me neither. It just is whatever it is, and that is that.
KenM wrote:
After working on myself and failing for most of my life, the only reason I can think of me failing at being social all the time is God does not want me to be happy.
After "working on myself" and failing for *all* of my own life, I have simply come to the conclusion I must not have been meant to be like everybody else.
KenM wrote:
So why should I try anymore if I have failed for over 20 years and I keep feeling like the outcast?
I recently had to "give up" on my own biggest desire in life and accept being an outcast in relation to my own family, and I cannot think of any reason to go back to trying. I still want what I had wanted, and I am quite convinced "God" wanted the same, but other people just would not cooperate.
You and I have the same deal, and AS is *not* the problem:
We want to be part of something too shallow to even try to make room for us.
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