Why am I so hated? By WP and Family
Here is something to consider:
How much is your sense of being hated just a figment of your imagination? I know that I often feel hated or persecuted even though no one is even thinking about me.
I am reminded of a line from Gravity's Angel by Laurie Anderson
My point is that we often have this oppressive sense of being disliked when we actually didn't even make an impression on anyone. Actually most of us live lives that aren't interesting enough to inspire hatred. If you can inspire hatred, you are doing pretty well. Most people just inspire others to think of the ham and cheese sandwiches in the next room.
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Before you all attack me, like you're all so good at doing; I'd like to say that tonight my family bitched at me telling me that I do nothing for them. I have done more for them than they realize. I have paid some of their bills with money out of my f***ing pocket. Do they respect me? f**k no. Do they thank me for what I do? f**k no. I'm done with them. Every single one of them. Either they go or I go. I don't know where I'll go next. Probably back to New England. There at least I'll be accepted by the community; more than I am here with attacks left and right. One member here wrongly claims that I have problems; although from her that's what I have come to expect.
I'm sorry that your family sucks. However, you do have problems.
1. LOL, you seriously think I have it easy? I spent most of my adolescence battling with depression. I can't even remember a good chunk of it because I was doped up on psychotropic meds. I live in a sh***y mountain town where the buses stop running after 6 PM. I'm a lesbian, and there really isn't much of a LGBTQ community around where I live. I'm surrounded by crazy people.
2. Actually, I do have friends.
3. What people here have said to you is most likely not going to bite them in the ass. We do not know you in real life. We will most likely never cross paths.
4. Stop making suicide threats. If you really, genuinely want to commit suicide, you need to get the f**k off the computer right now and check yourself into the hospital. Suicide threats are not something you make when you want attention.
Except it's not giving you peace; it's just making your life worse. Otherwise, you wouldn't even be making this post and other posts telling people to leave it alone.
I've made up characters of my own. However, I do not dress up as my characters, try to get other people to play along with me, insist that I am starting a "movement" around my characters, ask people to refer to me by my character's names, and constantly pretend to be my characters.
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I don't post here anymore. If you want to talk to me, go to the WP Facebook group or my Last.fm account.
Before you all attack me, like you're all so good at doing; I'd like to say that tonight my family bitched at me telling me that I do nothing for them. I have done more for them than they realize. I have paid some of their bills with money out of my f***ing pocket. Do they respect me? f**k no. Do they thank me for what I do? f**k no. I'm done with them. Every single one of them. Either they go or I go. I don't know where I'll go next. Probably back to New England. There at least I'll be accepted by the community; more than I am here with attacks left and right. One member here wrongly claims that I have problems; although from her that's what I have come to expect.
I'm sorry that your family sucks. However, you do have problems.
1. LOL, you seriously think I have it easy? I spent most of my adolescence battling with depression. I can't even remember a good chunk of it because I was doped up on psychotropic meds. I live in a sh***y mountain town where the buses stop running after 6 PM. I'm a lesbian, and there really isn't much of a LGBTQ community around where I live. I'm surrounded by crazy people.
2. Actually, I do have friends.
3. What people here have said to you is most likely not going to bite them in the ass. We do not know you in real life. We will most likely never cross paths.
4. Stop making suicide threats. If you really, genuinely want to commit suicide, you need to get the f**k off the computer right now and check yourself into the hospital. Suicide threats are not something you make when you want attention.
Except it's not giving you peace; it's just making your life worse. Otherwise, you wouldn't even be making this post and other posts telling people to leave it alone.
I've made up characters of my own. However, I do not dress up as my characters, try to get other people to play along with me, insist that I am starting a "movement" around my characters, ask people to refer to me by my character's names, and constantly pretend to be my characters.
If it helps you any, I'm Bisexual. I haven't officially come out about here; but I have to my family. That is why the party is open to the LGBTQ Community. I have had a boyfriend; named Alex. I just never chose to tell anyone here because I didn't want to.
I'm sorry for your situation. My life was never easy. Try coming home one day to find all of your stuff packed up ready to move and not having been told. Try being molested by your uncle when you were younger. Try living in a sh***y island town on a sh***y island where in the winter it's deader than a doornail. Just don't hate me anymore.
I'm sorry for your situation. My life was never easy. Try coming home one day to find all of your stuff packed up ready to move and not having been told. Try being molested by your uncle when you were younger. Try living in a sh***y island town on a sh***y island where in the winter it's deader than a doornail. Just don't hate me anymore.
I'm sorry for yours as well. However, sinking yourself into a fantasy world is not going to help.
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I would also like to tell you if you're feeling suicidal, please don't kill yourself. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. WP wouldn't be the same if you did that and you could hurt the people who know you in real life, as well.
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I'm sorry for your situation. My life was never easy. Try coming home one day to find all of your stuff packed up ready to move and not having been told. Try being molested by your uncle when you were younger. Try living in a sh***y island town on a sh***y island where in the winter it's deader than a doornail. Just don't hate me anymore.
I'm sorry for yours as well. However, sinking yourself into a fantasy world is not going to help.
I agree with Delerium. Living in a fantasy world doesn't solve anything. I had a favourite member break off a friendship with me. Instead of staying true to the 60s and The Kinks, while living in the 21st Century I've entered this fantasy Flushed Away world, where I was this punk rocker pitted against mainstream society. The plot was 1977 and there were some elements from the Star Wars Trillogy thrown into that world, with a bit of Disco. I got myself so sick and so bitter that I stopped that nonsense and brought myself back to the 2000s and to my real interests - the Kinks and the 60s. My mood has improved 200% and I'm not daydreaming about some made-up 70s world that I created out of anger.
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Wasn't going to attempt suicide anyways. And yes, WP would be the same; some people would be celebrating. My family wouldn't care. I've been going to see the "Good Doctor" off of this road out in Warren County. I go sit out there for hours smoking weed with him. I met him when I was sandbagging in Clarksville during the June 2008 flood. He let me sleep in his house for four days while I was there.
What were your other jobs?
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I agree with Delerium. Living in a fantasy world doesn't solve anything. I had a favourite member break off a friendship with me. Instead of staying true to the 60s and The Kinks, while living in the 21st Century I've entered this fantasy Flushed Away world, where I was this punk rocker pitted against mainstream society. The plot was 1977 and there were some elements from the Star Wars Trillogy thrown into that world, with a bit of Disco. I got myself so sick and so bitter that I stopped that nonsense and brought myself back to the 2000s and to my real interests - the Kinks and the 60s. My mood has improved 200% and I'm not daydreaming about some made-up 70s world that I created out of anger.
Am I the only one reminded of Preservation era Ray Davies in all of this? I can see your point about him being an Aspie!
Ackman, it's your call what you do with Creedonia. Other people might think you're too immersed in it, but it's not really for them to say. I used to have a fantasy world as a coping strategy and if anyone told me to get rid of my fantasy, I would've been furious with them. It was my decision to leave that world.
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What were your other jobs?
In a factory and at a bumper place.
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