marshall wrote:
It's starting to give me the urge to spray my brains on the wall. I really don't want to occupy the same universe as such people. I've had enough. I guess they win. They refuse to see their toxic effect on others. They might as well be deriving pleasure from pouring salt in the wounds of people already suffering. It seems people no longer think. They just swallow up the narcissistic ideals of the dominant culture and don't even consider the morality of it. They refuse to open their eyes harmfulness of the ideas they promote. From now on such people are as good as dead to me. I will go out of my way to avoid showing any kindness whatsoever to people of their like. They are not fully human to me. They are simply creatures, machines, fed by BS for which they have no mental capacity to question. I could stare into their eyes and see that there's absolutely nothing there. They are robots. Blind sheep. But they refuse to see it, for they are stubborn as mules, blinded by sheer narcissism. I simply cannot fathom them. They are not sentient for they do not feel. They do not learn. They're just simple animals. Devoid of the capacity to reflect. Devoid of compassion. Devoid of curiosity regarding the experience of others. Devoid of basic humanity.
I think by saying such aweful things that describe me to a bone you have helped with my depression. Yah I'm a Narcissist and I hate myself for it and I've been crying for a week straight now. It hurt so much but after seeing these terrible qualities you describe in myself I can't cry anymore. At least not right now. I'm taking this personally but it's not affecting me at all.
I know this thread isn't about me (I have to make it about me cause I'm a Narcissist remember). I'm not saying I'm proud but thank you. Thank you for making such brutally honest criticisms. I think you've punched my arm one last time to make it numb. Now the pain is gone for the moment until feeling comes back. Thanks for the painkillers.
10 Nov 2014, 1:30 am
