Do I have to pretend?

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Have you ever spoken to Screen Name? She reminds me of you a little bit.

Do you like Dali and Picasso? I find that to be good modern art.

If you're ever in Baltimore you should check out American Visionary Arts Museum, http://www.avam.org/

They have different exhibitions, but usually show art made of very unusual media, typically by mentally ill or non-NT individuals, though not always.

Hi Waterfall:

Yes, I like many kinds of modern art from many different sorts of artists.

Screen name is a person with about 600 posts who has three kids. She has, primarily, a speech production problem.

I think Screen_name is spelled like this. You might have type in the "_"

Hi Waterfalls,

I found her. I revived a thread from October from her so you could see her. She's in "Members Only."

I think she's busy with her family--that's why she hasn't posted recently.

It's spelled: screen_name

I wish I could say otherwise:

But this is the reality: In the "real world," perception very often IS reality.

Perception is reality, you're both right and I am too upset, to cope with the negativity that comes with being myself but if I could stop pretending that's what I crave is to just be and not have to modify everything, not for others actual comfort because I don't mind that; it's the modifying for pretending so everything can present as expected, the normal way, that's too much.

But, the alternative is worse.

When I'm stronger it's easier to look for a middle path, maybe there will be some small things for me that I can do just because. Not things that inconvenience of offend, that's not what I want. Just little things like putting my head down Or leaning back when I feel ill rather than sitting up bravely because it's expected and looks weird if I do what I want, maybe I will try to find a way and accept that it won't seem normal to other people and I hope I'm hurting no one, maybe something like that won't be too much of a drag on the normality people need.

I think you should stick to your guns, Waterfalls. You're a mother. That's credibility enough to act yourself without judgement. Just be yourself. I like you that way.