Why don't I do humanity a favor and just go kill myself?

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Months have passed. I've done absolutely nothing of significance. Never will. I guess some people are simply born to suffer, to be crushed by the boots of the most vicious and incorrigible. That's my place. I have no purpose, no cause, no point. As much as suicide seems to be a sensible option in escaping this nasty, brutish, short existence, it is futile. There is no escape. Suffering is eternal. Things like joy are only temporary, or turn out to be poisonous.

I can't change how you feel.

It's a pity you feel that way.

Do you happen to live near Santee, South Carolina? I like it there. I passed by it on I-95. I felt "temporary" joy. Then the joy went away. However, I was able to retain the memory of that "temporary" joy. You should do that, too. You should also channel all this anger/depression, etc. into your creative writing.

I happen to believe that "temporary" joy is better than no joy at all.

When the "temporary" joy fades away, it is your job to increase the possibility that you will experience that "temporary" joy again.

Your job is to use your gift to offset your feelings of "cursedness."

Ruthlessness can help somebody survive if he has a moral vacuum instead of a soul.

The rest of us can do more than survive. We can thrive.

As long as you are still breathing, you can improve your situation and your surroundings. Sometimes it takes a while to notice a difference. But it sure beats staying down when life kicks us.

I should have died in high school.

Don't Think of ending it my friend. I'm 20 years myself and I'm in the same life crisis as you are. We have a long way to go before anyone else DARES to judge how we should live our lives. Family or not you deserve as much respect as the guy next to you. If you think the world does not care about you. Let s be known that I care.

Now, the Kiwi Farms is threatening to dox my entire family.

I just saw this and googled and found the kiwi farms thread about WP. Reading now. I've never heard of this forum and may check it out. What is the topic of the forum or is there one? I've only seen the WP thread that I'm reading so I haven't had a chance to look at the rest of it yet.

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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
My forum is still there and everyone is welcome to come join as well. There is a private women only subforum there if anyone is interested. Also, there is no CAPTCHA.

The link to the forum is http://www.rightplanet.proboards.com

I looked at the forum and it seems they just post about people and stuff they dislike. No harm really, but I could see being pissed off if they were talking about you. What with free speech and all that I doubt there is anything you can do about it except ignore it. It looks like they read you here too so i wouldn't complain about them on here either, that would probably encourage more of the same. It's probably going to be hard to do, but if I were you I would stay away from that forum. When you stop reacting to them,and also stop posting the kind of things they would make fun of, they will move on to someone else

I went through and looked at the lolcow threads and the sjw one looks promising to me. I loathe sjw's so I should get a smile out of it.

Sorry you're having a sh***y time but don't let something unimportant like the internet ruin your life or upset you too much. If need be, take a break from the entire thing and don't get online anywhere for a few months. I guarantee you that after a few months away from it, your perspective on the internet will have changed.

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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
My forum is still there and everyone is welcome to come join as well. There is a private women only subforum there if anyone is interested. Also, there is no CAPTCHA.

The link to the forum is http://www.rightplanet.proboards.com

I am going to have to side with Kiwifarms on this one. You are giving them the reactions they expect from you and that is funny to them. I recommend you either stop letting yourself get provoked and avoid Kiwifarms or you do some self-reflection. Often the problem lies with the difficulty or inability of realization. I am not trying to be mean here and I am trying to help resolve your issue.

How much have you fed them anyways? I would also like to ask: What is the logic behind self-harm? It doesn't solve problems. Let people help you. There are some very helpful people on these forums who may be able to ease your situation.

(PS: I bet this is going to get some kind of reaction from a mod, because I may have been a little harsh.)

Why don't you just give them the e-mails? I read the thread and they seem like they're being more than fair with you.

Please don't self-harm it's not a solution.
Kiwifarms is a nasty site full of evil trolls targeting autistics but please do not trust or collaborate with
this "vordrak" guy , he gives out really creepy vibes.

Finally .. I'm the real and actual Avillemedia© and the user pretending to be me is an imposter ! !! !

Because you're as valuable as anybody else and have as much right to find happyness and if you kill yourself you'll never know how it may turn out if you keep digging as corny as it sounds. I know the bleak feeling very well but I also know life can turn around and you can hold perspective over time however small the progress seems it helps.

@TheGift, nevermind. As much as you provoke people on other sites, I have lost any will to help you because you are a hypocrite, a sociopath (maybe psycho is a better word) and expect sympathy from everyone by threatening to kill yourself. I recommend WP doesn't help you either, because you don't seem to be sincere about stopping your issues.

^ your earlier post was good, was critical but constructive. but that may have been better left unsaid.