Seriously,what reason do i have to live?

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Not true, Red Orchestra for instance runs on an outdated game engine and it's more realistic than Bioshock or whatever.

Maybe you've dedicated your life to PC games too much and you don't really know what else you can do. I used to be really game addicted too, but I'm no longer addicted since I started playing the bass guitar. Now I also play the electric guitar and I'm really glad I started. I'm not in a band (yet) but I still find lots of fun in music.

Uber micro?

1. Prove it.

2. I tried to get into music in 4th grade/5th grade,i quickly lost interest...

I once burned out on Doctor Who, and had to move onto other interests.

Maybe you could learn to write video game software? Make some calls and find out what resources are available to help you move in that direction.

im a video game geek and i work as a programmer/database admin/web application builder. decent pay. 4 months worth of salary got me a gaming laptop (more expensive than a gaming pc but i like small and compact stuff) so maybe you can develop your computer skill that can get you a job that you can be good at.

1. Simple, Red Orchestra is a shooter centered around realism, Bioshock wasn't intended to be realistic

2. I wasn't interested in music back then either... I got more interested as I got into the teens.
Music worked for me and of course it might not be the thing for you. Just look around on the Internet and you might find some thing that you may like to do.

I wonder about that myself sometimes. All I can usually come up are selfish and materialistic reasons to remain.

I just think that the world needs more aspies. I feel too unique and weird to die. Like I'm waiting for something odd to happen to me.

Hi RTSgamerFTW.
Wow! You invest a lot of your 'reason for being' in your computer games, I can relate, my obsessions have led me into some dark corners when they were frustrated. I know everyone is telling you crap like 'you'll get over it' - and you will but I know you don't want to hear or believe that now. The thing is life is always going to throw everyone s**t to have to get over, it just seems to be harder for us, we transfer anxiety into obsession, fear into panic....
I know that it seems really frustrating having an older low spec PC when you would like to be able to keep up with developments but the reality is that you will never keep up - really you are chasing a rainbow because the realism of PC or console games will never be that exacting and at best you will experience a simulation of what you really crave which is experience and stimulation.
People are offering you varying solutions, some may or may not work for you. Try and hang in there cuz' as death may well be pretty bloody final and if this is your only chance at living try and play out at least this hand - eh?
On the computer gaming tip, I have an old AMD Athalon with only Pro-Savage graphics and 256mb of memory, she groans along on mid age games and will not play anything new but I live with it, you see you can look at life as a glass of water, it can be part full or part empty, the way you choose to perceive it is your choice. You see I may not have a very flash PC but judging by feedback about advances in PC games, the only thing that has advanced that much is really only aesthetic, the gameplay has hardly evolved at all and has often [when it comes to version 2,3,4 etc...] devolved as game designers tried to get cleverer and cleverer.
I play a game called Blitzkrieg, it is now quite old but still has a stronger following than version 2 which promised so much yet delivered less than the original even if it does look a lot flasher. The beauty of this game is that it is open source and can be changed a lot as well as expanded on, so your [I believe] US$9-99 will reward you for a long time, I am sure there will be other games that rank the same, have you tried American Conquest? it looks pretty and plays very well, could keep you occupied for a very long time...
Anyway, [I know I can go on...] what I am trying to say is sometimes you need to change perspective a little in order to see the good in your situation, like my old PC leading to a lot of savings because I buy off sales tables and from 'budget collections' and like my Aspergers leading to lots of time alone playing on it because I have problems holding down work and making/maintaining relationships...
Just some thoughts, but hang in there - eh
peace and kia kaha, j

Value is epistemologically assigned. Nothing is inherently valuable; it only has value as it exists in your perception. Your own life is no different. If you're looking for false hopes about love, progress, or eventual happiness, I'm afraid I am not the source; problems persist, the world gets worse, and we are all powerless to impact them. So if you think that eventually the world is going to solve itself for you, you're wrong. You have to decide what is valuable to you; whatever you decide, that is your joie de vivre. If you feel that nothing gives your life value, then nothing does. Your life is only valuable because you value it; if you do not value yourself, then you are worthless.

This was probably unhelpful. Never ask an existentialist what reason you have to live. Also, I apologise for the redundancy; I just did not want to be misinterpreted.

Disclaimer
I am not encouraging suicide. Suicide is not a good thing. My advice is to find your own meaning in life instead of waiting for someone to hand it to you.

I really feeling your pain man. I'm having a bad day today too. It's like no one understands you in this world and you don't understand them. It sucks, I know. But just hang on, try to find an Aspie group in your area. And if there isn't any, then take a small vacation and find the closest one you can find.

Gamer, I feel the same way about life. there just doesn't seem to be any reason to live once you realise that there's no life after death.

I never worked up the courage to finish myself, and I think I'm glad now. How I survive my crap life is just to not let anything hurt me. I curl up un my self-contained ball and anything that happens just bounces off. And I feel serene.

And as a plus, I'm truly unafraid of death.

Good heavens... killing yourself over not having the best graphics? Okay, okay... I know obsessions are hard to put into perspective. But still.

Anyway, think of the games you'd miss in the future if you kill yourself now!

I know- I really, really know- that one of the hardest things you can do in life, especially as an Aspie, is to start working towards a goal when you feel hopeless. But there must be some way you can earn a little money here and there, throw it into a jar, start saving up? Odd jobs, part-time work, chores, anything? Although your goal may seem so far as to be unattainable now, just putting that first penny in the jar might make just enough difference in your outlook. You may not have control over everything life throws at you, but you do have control over what you do with it.