Post a random negative fact/belief about yourself/your life.

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There are two of me: The true me, the person I am on Wrongplanet, the eleventh-grade Holocaust scholar who self-educates, loves her mother, and cares about the downtrodden, and the second, false me, who exists only to ridicule the true me, it seems.

The true me is a product of genetics, upbringing, and education. The false me is solely the work of the culture, especially libertarianism and Generation Y academic perfectionism. The false me thinks I'm weak. The false me is angry because I have "unprofitable" talents like creative writing instead of worthwhile ones like salesmanship or power brokerage. The false me makes fun of my favorite writers. The false me believes all emotion to be sentimentality. The false me believes that sex is a waste of time, and a dirty, shameful one at that (the true me has accepted sexuality as a part of life). In other words, the false me is a Nazi. She's like a screechy cross-breed of Ayn Rand, Ann Coulter, my chemistry teacher, Donald Trump, and a pit viper. And I can't get rid of her. Any article I read with a "libertarian" bent (e.g. "The Disgusting Emotionalism of Holocaust Memorial Day," " How Ignoring the Poor Will End Poverty," "Why We Don't Need Psychiatry: Pull Yourselves Up By Your F---ing Bootsraps, You Neurotic Whiners") activates her and sends her on a tirade against me. I wish I knew how to kill her.

I'm too self-absorbed to be in a relationship. Jack looked tired and sad today, sitting with his head in his hands, and all I could do was say nothing and ignore it and continue to pace back and forth, because that's all I was interested in.

Everybody outside of my family that cares about me eventually abandons me.

i'm never going to be able to do the things i used to do and i'll leave before i'm ready.

I'm going to sleep my life away.

I lack the intestinal fortitude to reach the simple goals that I know I need to achieve to have a reasonable adult life. I lack all self esteem and I always doubt myself and believe that I am not as good as everyone else. I also think I might have developed an eating disorder.

i apparently anooy the one person i really like being around.

Sometimes I just wish my life would just end. I don't have a future.

My mother is probably talking to my father behind my back about how irresponsible I am and how if I'm not careful my son will be taken away.

I have an irrational fear of saying something inappropriate which tends to leave me sitting in silence.
I’m almost certain I just get on everyone’s nerves if I engage in conversation with them.
At this rate I’ll never learn how to start/end a conversation.


--lee

I really don't like being with my family. I think they stop me from being happy, I can't wait to move out

I think pathological alcocholics should just die.


I will be all alone my entire life, I can try all I can, but I have to face the facts. At least it's better to be alone than to be near some people.

I would really appreciate it if the people I love would *not* become indignant when I point out their inconsistencies with regard to our relationship. I am tired of ignoring injustices almost daily and admitting I was wrong when I clearly would not be if I had explained everything that lead to the error at hand was actually not my fault.
Really, this makes me hate *everyone* that does even one thing wrong to me. They will deny it to the day they die, and I will take all the blame because I value harmony more than anyone I know, apparently.

Why be negative, when I can be positive? :O)

I want to withdraw from society altogether, but I can't. I have to take care of my family. I'm not happy about it.

Wow, Ana54, re your first post: that is exactly how I feel.