scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Foxy, don't believe it.  Past behavior is the same as future behavior only if all conditions remain the same.  Changing your behavior/methods can change your results!  Really.  Had I not changed my own behavior, I might still be homeless, unemployed, and single.  You can do it too!

Because, if you (or I) gets fatter, it'll require wasting limited income on getting more clothes. Not to mention it makes getting around harder and it's easier to aim when you piss if you can see your junk. If you can't aim you need to clean the bathroom more often. I'm not being flippant, I'm focusing on the tiny things that impact quality of life when they add up.

Also, right now I feel null.

It requires me to go hungry 90% of the time, and it doesn’t matter if I stop or lose weight I’ll never be good enough for any woman, so it’s pointless.

I’d like to have variety too but I can’t . I’d like to eat a sandwich and chips instead of cereal again but cereal is 350 calories and sandwich and chips is way more then thst and so would go over my calorie limit thus making me fatter.

I'm not sure what your diet looks like, but the thing that's literally killing me is how much soda I drink. I'm pretty sure that's between a third and half of my calories in a day. But anyways, I gotta head out to work, so knock my score down another few points until 1am.

I don’t drink soda . When you start counting calories you see how much each food has.m
One slice of bread is 110 calories. Two slices to make a sandwich is 220 calories. Already the bread alone is almost a bowl of cereal. Meat is another 100-200 calories, slice of cheese is 80 calories. Chips another 100-200 calories and so a sandwich and chips is double now. And when you can only eat 1600-2,000 calories a day it’s a lot,
Fast food is worse. W small hamburger is 500 calories, frisée 500 calories a single meal from fast food is the whol days worth of calories.

But eating the same small amount of food every single day is depressing.
I’m sick of chicken. I’m tired of constantly being hungry so I’ve eaten a lot since grandmas passed and when I get sad I eat a lot so I haven’t kept to my limit most days.
Now I’m close to 300 pounds I’ve never been this fat. I’m wearing 3xl pants and they almost don’t fit me, there’s no size past 4x.

It’s hard to keep to limit when sad and I get sad most days. Works stressful, women keep rejecting me. So I eat more then I should.

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Still waking up from the sharp pains in my hand; I guess it's because the drugs have worn off by then (looks about right by looking at the half-lives). Not that bothersome, but still noteworthy. Technically, it should be there forever now, and perhaps with a chance of worsening a bit when the neuromas form completely on the ends of the severed nerves (and where they form, but it'd be in scar tissue most likely, so yeah).

Probably ruined everything in another part of life, but O well. I'm kinda sick of myself too all things considered, so yeah, it makes sense from this side too.

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Reaper (ze local crow) is a fan of bread and not just kissing toads, like ze magpies (ze buddies); he's still scared of humans, though. Watching birds makes me happy. I really shouldn't feed them, though.

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And hey, at least I have a more understandable excuse for normal people when they ask me why I can't drive. Sure, if you look into it more, one handed people can have modified cars, but it'll end the question quickly.

It's better and more understandable than saying, "I have autism and I can't focus on more than 1 thing at a time and I'll probably kill myself and/or someone else if I drove on a public road."

My former father-in-law lost an arm in WWII and drove ok with no modifications!

Well yes, I'm sure you could get by fine with just one hand on the wheel (especially with an auto or newer/racing manual, but an older manual would still be workable), but legally it's different from place to place.

Hence, it's much easier conversational wise and would lead to less...awkward silences, and end the conversation. Whilst mental stuff and acceptance of the same has come a long way in the West, it still makes people uncomfortable. I hear and see it. When you tell people you're autistic, schizophrenic, bi-polar or any of the other severe mental disorders, you're automatically judged, and people have trouble understanding it. If you say you can't use your hand due to something they can see, they understand. Yeah, you can say who cares and all that, but the lack of empathy in autism doesn't mean you don't feel it, rather you just can't show it (especially as you get older, you start to learn to recognize and feel things from others more). I'd rather not make people uncomfortable. Especially when it involves neighbors and so on and not just strangers.

I can also say I'm an environmentalist, heh, but that has a 50/50 chance of making people even more uncomfortable.

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unless you do something different.

non-starchy veggies have lots of nutrients and few calories and are recommended by dieticians to be liberally eaten by dieters. that'd be some variety.

-oops - i told a guy with one arm (couldn't tell because he had a coat on) to also use his other arm when he complained of a bag being heavy. i wonder if i'll ever learn to stop giving unsolicited advice.

-3 Depression, plus so not looking forward to the change in sleep meds starting tonight I really wish I could sleep well enough that I actually had the energy to do things during the day, not having that energy makes me feel so lazy.

that reminds me of when i was walking behind somebody i thought was a woman, this person was slender, a bit curvy, wearing tank top and tight jeans, and they stopped in front of me, and as i was maneuvering around them i said "excuse me, ma'am" and they whipped around and it was a very masculine bearded man [whippet thin] who in an angry baritone said "WHAT did you call ME?!"