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14 Dec 2019, 10:22 am

-3. I feel anxious and lonely.



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14 Dec 2019, 3:44 pm

5- its been a pig of a day but I ain't budging.



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14 Dec 2019, 5:30 pm

About a seven.


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14 Dec 2019, 5:51 pm

-5 I slept terribly last night and braved the mall for some Christmas shopping. Buried my crested gecko earlier in the day. Still deciding what to do about my future. Do I push myself to get a job and deal with moving out of my parents' house for the first time and all that comes with it while also holding a job? Do I plunge into the deep end and try living on my own with minimal assistance (really only financial assistance from my parents, plus the ability to call them any time to ask for advice)? Do I just continue doing the same thing I've been doing (that is, pretty much nothing) and hope to eventually find something that suits my needs and will actually help me? I need to decide what I'm doing by early January, or it will default to the last option.


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15 Dec 2019, 12:38 am

dragonsanddemons wrote:
-5 I slept terribly last night and braved the mall for some Christmas shopping. Buried my crested gecko earlier in the day. Still deciding what to do about my future. Do I push myself to get a job and deal with moving out of my parents' house for the first time and all that comes with it while also holding a job? Do I plunge into the deep end and try living on my own with minimal assistance (really only financial assistance from my parents, plus the ability to call them any time to ask for advice)? Do I just continue doing the same thing I've been doing (that is, pretty much nothing) and hope to eventually find something that suits my needs and will actually help me? I need to decide what I'm doing by early January, or it will default to the last option.

have you changed in any way that makes you think you'd be better able to tolerate a job? if not, maybe eliminate that choice from the list.



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15 Dec 2019, 7:13 am

Gotta love how a combination of insomnia, exhaustion, and exposure to triggers can turn a +6 day into a -1 morning.



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15 Dec 2019, 5:02 pm

cathylynn wrote:
dragonsanddemons wrote:
-5 I slept terribly last night and braved the mall for some Christmas shopping. Buried my crested gecko earlier in the day. Still deciding what to do about my future. Do I push myself to get a job and deal with moving out of my parents' house for the first time and all that comes with it while also holding a job? Do I plunge into the deep end and try living on my own with minimal assistance (really only financial assistance from my parents, plus the ability to call them any time to ask for advice)? Do I just continue doing the same thing I've been doing (that is, pretty much nothing) and hope to eventually find something that suits my needs and will actually help me? I need to decide what I'm doing by early January, or it will default to the last option.

have you changed in any way that makes you think you'd be better able to tolerate a job? if not, maybe eliminate that choice from the list.


I've had TMS that seems to have improved my depression, eased my self-harm, and eliminated my suicidal thoughts. The real question is, is my condition improved enough that I can handle a job, or will trying to work just put me back where I was? Unfortunately there's not really a way to answer that question besides try it and see. Maybe if I get a job coach, that can help ease me into it, as well as help me actually get a job in the first place.


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15 Dec 2019, 5:07 pm

dragonsanddemons wrote:
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dragonsanddemons wrote:
-5 I slept terribly last night and braved the mall for some Christmas shopping. Buried my crested gecko earlier in the day. Still deciding what to do about my future. Do I push myself to get a job and deal with moving out of my parents' house for the first time and all that comes with it while also holding a job? Do I plunge into the deep end and try living on my own with minimal assistance (really only financial assistance from my parents, plus the ability to call them any time to ask for advice)? Do I just continue doing the same thing I've been doing (that is, pretty much nothing) and hope to eventually find something that suits my needs and will actually help me? I need to decide what I'm doing by early January, or it will default to the last option.

have you changed in any way that makes you think you'd be better able to tolerate a job? if not, maybe eliminate that choice from the list.


I've had TMS that seems to have improved my depression, eased my self-harm, and eliminated my suicidal thoughts. The real question is, is my condition improved enough that I can handle a job, or will trying to work just put me back where I was? Unfortunately there's not really a way to answer that question besides try it and see. Maybe if I get a job coach, that can help ease me into it, as well as help me actually get a job in the first place.


best of luck!



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15 Dec 2019, 7:18 pm

I'm pretty much always close to 0/null but I'm also constantly sick of living. I'm pretty sure I'm only alive because actually committing to ending things is too much effort and it can always wait until tomorrow.


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16 Dec 2019, 1:28 am

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16 Dec 2019, 1:35 am

old.



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16 Dec 2019, 7:10 am

-5, some of my family members are disrespectful and mostly see negativity.



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16 Dec 2019, 11:49 am

Probably on a 0, bordering into the negatives.

The reason can be found here: viewtopic.php?t=150214&start=27780


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16 Dec 2019, 1:46 pm

-3 I'm really ready for this cold or whatever to go away.


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