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11 Jan 2020, 12:35 pm

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11 Jan 2020, 1:38 pm

Have you thought about being a Speech Pathologist, Kip?

Linguistics is a fairly big part of the science aspect of Speech Pathology. There are many jobs for people with a Masters of Speech Pathology, or an MSW.



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11 Jan 2020, 4:42 pm

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I carelessly caused one of the drawing pencils I have to fall and break in half. Not only have my dreams of being an artist have fallen and broken on the ground, so has one of the tools I needed but failed to use properly has fallen and broken.

Why can’t I draw good? My hands can’t follow what my brain wants no matter how hard I try. Now the tools I need are getting destroyed.



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11 Jan 2020, 6:16 pm

auntblabby wrote:
1.754. why am i still up late? busy day at eye doc's place.


Worried about your eye. Hope it'll be okay. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}



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11 Jan 2020, 6:19 pm

+8

Dishes are done. Laundry is done. Supper is in the slow-cooker. Wife is happy. I have the TV remote in one hand and a cuppa green tea in the other.

Life is good.



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11 Jan 2020, 7:14 pm

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11 Jan 2020, 7:17 pm

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-2 Therapy appointment accomplished nothing, mostly my therapist just wanted to talk about my dog and The Sims :roll: I mentioned that my depression was coming back in the numbing form, but he quickly changed the subject. I think I need to be a bit more assertive about talking about what I want to talk about with him. This is supposed to be therapy time, not "catch up and chat" time.

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12 Jan 2020, 2:03 am

Jakki wrote:
auntblabby wrote:
1.754. why am i still up late? busy day at eye doc's place.

Hope your eye gets better. very soon.

thank you my friend :flower:



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12 Jan 2020, 2:05 am

Juliette wrote:
auntblabby wrote:
1.754. why am i still up late? busy day at eye doc's place.


Worried about your eye. Hope it'll be okay. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}

thank you my friend :flower: take extra good care of your peepers, y'hear? ;)



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12 Jan 2020, 2:08 am

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-6 why did i choose a linguistics degree? i'm an idiot, absolute clown i don't want to be a professor i have no idea what i'm going to do on WA. absolutely terrified for my future 22 and not a clue how do people decide this s**t?

"life is what happens when you've made other plans." (john lennon)
more people than will admit it, stumble serendipitously [or otherwise] into their careers. you could get your linguistics degree and even advanced degrees in same, but end up a bureaucrat. and general good recommendation for WA employment, is STEM.



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12 Jan 2020, 8:23 am

Internal friction and internal integrity involves grit.
No internal friction and internal integrity involves flow.
Internal friction and no internal integrity involves staggering.
No internal friction and no internal integrity involves stagnancy.

Yeah... Yeah, I think I realized it now. The 'contrasts' of these... Although too simplified, it might be enough in my own terms. For now.


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12 Jan 2020, 7:00 pm

Marknis wrote:
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I carelessly caused one of the drawing pencils I have to fall and break in half. Not only have my dreams of being an artist have fallen and broken on the ground, so has one of the tools I needed but failed to use properly has fallen and broken.

Why can’t I draw good? My hands can’t follow what my brain wants no matter how hard I try. Now the tools I need are getting destroyed.


now you have TWO pencils -lol.



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12 Jan 2020, 8:04 pm

Marknis wrote:
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I carelessly caused one of the drawing pencils I have to fall and break in half. Not only have my dreams of being an artist have fallen and broken on the ground, so has one of the tools I needed but failed to use properly has fallen and broken.

Why can’t I draw good? My hands can’t follow what my brain wants no matter how hard I try. Now the tools I need are getting destroyed.


Nothing is wrong with you, you are merely impatient and/or probably making the mistake of comparing yourself to proffesionals (i hope not).

As long as you are getting a drawing done each day you will get to a comfortable plateau, if you don't plan on making money via your art there is no need to be in a rush to be excellent. Even children's drawing when they're done with a full heart have a kind of charm to them. Just have fun drawing and be sure to do it at least a little bit each day. Getting discouraged and impatient will only ensure that you never get anywhere.

Just resupply what you broke and be on your way, don't compare yourself to other people. You're not racing them, you are on your own course and at your own pace with your own skills.



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12 Jan 2020, 8:24 pm

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Internal friction and internal integrity involves grit.
No internal friction and internal integrity involves flow.
Internal friction and no internal integrity involves staggering.
No internal friction and no internal integrity involves stagnancy.

Yeah... Yeah, I think I realized it now. The 'contrasts' of these... Although too simplified, it might be enough in my own terms. For now.


very insightful i think


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12 Jan 2020, 8:33 pm

cathylynn wrote:
Marknis wrote:
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I carelessly caused one of the drawing pencils I have to fall and break in half. Not only have my dreams of being an artist have fallen and broken on the ground, so has one of the tools I needed but failed to use properly has fallen and broken.

Why can’t I draw good? My hands can’t follow what my brain wants no matter how hard I try. Now the tools I need are getting destroyed.


now you have TWO pencils -lol.


big sigh...! what gets me is when autonomic nervous system commands become interrupted supposably by disease process and misfiring neurons
send poorly interpeted signals to muscle control and results appear completely awkward. or you just fall over but 'arm ' control command structure has enough integrity to catch you on the way down . until balance control and foot and ankle controls are almost able to return . Then invert the process and fine motor hand control goes away. but rest of you is operating just fine. And add 1 disabled hand to the equation. Lucky if i do not end up with 3 pencils. Then try this living alone..... the fun never ends :skull:


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13 Jan 2020, 3:54 pm

Unknown.


But I'm looking back for a while:
I don't chase spirituality. More like spirituality is chasing me for some weird reasons that logic cannot seem to explain. A part of me thinks it's fate, part of me thinks it's just me.

I initially blame my 'light' as the main source of all my sufferings, by being guilty and weak and all that soft pro-social crap that held me back, the things I have to dance around.
The stupid gullible things people like to advertise as kindness, empathy and compassion -- for most of my life, I've been seeing it as an opportunity only to be missed out by unwanted conscience and inability to function the way I intended.

And yes, I wanna be a very able 'sinner' and I wanna able to 'sin' to get what I want alright. But not... Not like this. I'm changing rapidly, especially on how I interpreted my own emotions and anyone else's.
I can definitely say I 'serve' the dark and would likely serve the dark, but why am I being pulled by the 'light'? What have I done exactly?


On top of that -- I'm initially an autistic who only sees what's in front of me. I dismiss 'symptoms' and 'signs' for coincidences, I dismiss my emotionality because it's impractical. I want to disbelieve and be closed off because believing is just damn silly.
All those disdain towards irrationality, the hatred, the human nature -- yeah, they made more sense just not how I or how most autistics or those with jaded social views would interpret it.
Again; I wanna be a sinner, so ethics may as well be a distant idea. But I 'cannot'.

Just what world did I stumbled myself into? Why is it chasing me?
This is not what I how would've want, but I'd take the chances and let it be. I know it's a gruelling work, but that's the whole point why I'm letting it happen.

And why am I telling myself this? Why am I actually cling around the idea of sin as the means to have and do it?



Or rather... The idea of 'sin' and 'virtue' -- was it actually the terms of how others and the society interpret? :skull: The interpretations through the lenses of fear, doubt, 'wanting' and guilt underneath the pro-social terms they claimed as 'moral' and 'right'?


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