scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Mr S. The principal was very kind n everything else that im ashamed I even assumed bad intent of him ...

I think my life is pretty good. I got to the root of my recent constant anger and realized the cause

5


i really, really, really like her.

^^^have you and her met each other's acquaintance?

huh?

i've mostly talked to her...i've spoken to her coworkers once, but i don't know how well they know each other.

i have no idea if she knows or has spoken to my roommate - my only close friend on this island so far

she looks quite young, which worries me. there is a high school on the island, but no college. i've noticed that people of my age group seem to be uncommon here...those of college age mostly leave for tacoma or seattle and don't return until they can own homes.

vashon is home to people children-high school age, and elderly retirees...and VERY LITTLE in between.

i hope i will be able to relate to her.

there's more than one fish in the sea in any case.

7. I feel peaceful and grateful.

Nice.

7

5
Sleep messed up from one of the kids last night messed up my exec functioning and plans for the day. One little thing. Feel bad about myself bcuz im comparing myself to Weird Al yankovic’s scathing viewmof Kevin Fed something and thinking im essentially in the same category but I know I cant help it and know stuff i DO do and have done that the western world and particularly with ppl who dont have kids with disabilites, doesn't seem to recognize as work...

but they cannot see that

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Aspergers has destroyed my life.

-8.

I know the feeling, but nowadays i think aspergers and difficulties are also a part of life. Life is not meant to be always happy.

I'm feeling maybe 5. I will erase someone from my life today according to their behavior.

Yeah I saw videos on SBSK youtube channel that made me realize that..

The boy whose brother had already died and now he is going to die of the same genetic condition.. And his parents knew that too in advance.

He is always in physical pain from the disease..


Also he cant do as much as anyone else his age or walk or have friends being a part of his life.
The last one is only since people think its contagious (even though its not) or bully and mistreat him. He can't participate actively himself to go meet people in the typical activities.

That isolation must be even worse since he does not have autism.

That he is essentially NT in his social drive but he can't actually have that. On top of everything else he and his parents deal with.

But yeah. All we can do for him is donate to the scientific research to help find a cure..

also keep ppl in mind, check up on them, create plans and actually spend time with ppl instead of letting them suffer more with isolation and lack of caring..

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Still jet-lagged. Going on melatonin therapy. All else is good.

The SBSK YouTube channel is great!

I'm doing about a 3 or 4. Sort of "meh."

I used to dislike it when it first began because--- in my foolishness, what I was going through at the time, and lack of theory of mind-- I thought the guy was doing it for ego points.

Him being narcissistic, getting his kicks by being with disabled people and then making videos of it to make himself feel good.

Being obviously happy, handsome and smart, his joviality next to people who were suffering or not as lucky,
Rubbed me the wrong way.

I didn't think it was sincere. And that's why he had a big smile on his face. I thought he was exploiting people for his own fame or ego.

I was projecting what was true of someone actually like that, in my life at the time, onto him.

Of course I was wrong.