I really am a cripple, you know.

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Okay .............. I have spent these past weeks: (1? Finally getting some money from the NYS lawyer
, the !2) leaving the shelter for a cheap motel, although (3) the staff and fellow.
clients were almost all very nice (4) because, really, the situation DID NOT allow me enough sleep! Or rest! Or time not walking around and straining my body & doing nothing! (5) Briefly, I came back after the money was gone but I feel the whole not-enkugh-skeep dynamic starting up again .
Tonight, I've (6) stayed out already past the pick-up for the shelter, and, after this meal, I'm going to go busk, I bought a considerable amount if busking instruments while I was at the motel and(7) this nite, I'll go to the ER yet again, as, briefly, I'm out of my prescription dugs a couple days now, I lost my crutch and - If I hadn't et a lotta Mary Jane edibles, I'd be in considerable pain now . I bieve I can go back to the shelter too-morrow, no questions asked, if I'm not hospital-admitted.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Yer gonna busk? I had no idea! I wish I could hear you. What kind of music do you do?

...Ine-line simplistically I could say " doo-llN
.sd Haggard song, " Cherokee Maiden " wop and oke Porter - not being entirely iinaccurate! Really, I have sorta a garbage-can memory for pop songs if the " Classic Top 40 " years - and a fairish bit of Our Parents' Generation pop songs, especially ones from musicals . A
To-nughf, I tried, I know, at least a verse, generally more, when I busked, of:
Ronettes song, " You Came, You Saw, You Conqered "
Bob Wills/Merle Haggard, " Cherokee Maiden " (That acceptable these days? ).
" Tonite Tonite " (Mellotones/Dion Dimucci)
" I Do (X5) " Abba. I did that for the first time? this night and my voice was best on it for night - I was doing my last song.
I had gotten .
No money that set. Oh well. More lated !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...A kick-back up.






EzraS"]Robin sent a private message giving all the info needed. The name and email address etc of the person who will send the transcripts. He spent quite a lot of time and effort getting the info.

10 Jul 2018:

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Returrning to Daniel...At one point (during the period that I had left his place, and was killing time in a cheap motel, waiting for Daniel to get his s**t together and take me back to Santa Cruz...for which he charged me $140, remember - This, as with all the driving charges, was above and beyond the $90£ a month or so I paid for board here, I did not complain about that, I complaied about such as the.
$25
charge for a 0.7
miles each way roip to Wal-Mart. I did not make compaint about the $900 rent. Is that clplper IIlear now? Hopeso . - Anyway, while I was in the motel, iy appeared thagb stole some important paperwork from me!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I am at the Capitola Mall Target store, awaiting on a taxi I've called. Briefly, I was buying still more sweatpants;pajamas, as I was once again down to only the clothes I was wearing . I have had some money recently, and a fair bit was spent on taxis - getting here too Target, getting above& beyon carrying.stuff from the cabbies - It underli...Later.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Since I think I put it in this thread*, I'll put this here...I have bounced back to San Francisco at this time. I guess, at east at this time, I"'ll be staying here. Bluntly, it looks like this is where I can get the medical help - I guess I'm not going to find anything in Santa Cruz . I don't know that I'll be able to switch my ID details Tim's I can access a big computer, which means " going to the library " now. I have been in Zuckerberg General Hospital here in SF this past week. I was once again receiving treat.ent fot water weight bloating - I was over 300 pounds . I am at something like 27p now, after a week of diuretics and other t
drugs, I clouding insulin (which, as type 2 diabetic, I don't take, shooting up or otherwise, when outside. I needed it . I seem to be in the neighborhood of 270 now. I was told that I could, post-here, be in some sort of " respite " place. I've assumed that I could continue with the heart and kidney treatment - J" e been told that I should expect dialysis treat me t down the road - that I got the first bits if before I returned to Sa re Cruz, which was kind of to get money sent to me by the NYS lawyer, who hadn't quite intefnized the San Francisco address, and to do some " wrapping up " in SC, which I have pretty much totally done.
When I came back here last week-so, I did immediately get a week's?? bed in a big shelter...Then, the nurse, seeing how I'd gain ed 3o pounds or so in just 3 weeks or so, said I should go here. That's good, I needed it.. I left much of my stuff at the shelter, packed. Books, clothes, medicine, musical instruments. I was told that, with the bed, they would be safe. However, with the week now up, I don't know. I've lost so many things before . However, I am optimistic that the tightly packed Thu vs would have been saved - Including a whole lot of pot edibles I bought from the store I'm registered with...Carefully hidden away deep inside the backpack, I'm not stupid! ...along with a replacement for the T-shirt of theirs that was among the things I left behind, abandoned, when I made that two-ish weeks ago return to SC - Seriously, I thought if the amount I bought as month's - Plural - worth.
I just guess I'm likely to get more medical stuff, especially, in by-U.S.-standards very lefty San Francisco (even if Fox News, say, would be P.O.'d. That's all .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...At this moment I am, here in San Francisco, out of Zuckerberg Hospital and in the " respite " place, which is the same place I was in in 2015 or so, as I thought. It seems hood now - for a homeless place when you are crippled and all your long-term (the stkrage in Santa Cruz( and short-term (the shelter I was in before Zuckefberg are away from you .
I am much lighter now, a late time I was weighed before I left Zuckerberg I was 60 pounds+ lighter than one earlier weight .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Just a point as to how crippled I am as far as getting up from a lying position - Eight days, two Sunday's. ago I went from this " temporary respite " place I am now, to the Herbs Buena Gardens park here in San Francisco, to get some sun and lie on the grass. I can hardly do it anymore and I miss it a lot .
The park had a partial hill part with grass on it. I lay upon it - when the time ran out, I tried to get myself in a standing position. As I was on a hill and had my stuff bag and a small tree near me - with all of these together I did get myself up unaided. ( I would have asked for help if I needed it.) But, it was tiring, I had to stand and catch my breath after getting up. That's how crippled I am .
Furthermore, much of the time, " normal " chairs hive me pain in my back . I am flat now on my bed - getting up from it will be an effort .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!