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03 Oct 2015, 11:15 pm

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How the f*** do you dare tell me I know nothing about mental health? That is what has been my life for 30 years! And you have the gall to say I know nothing, because I don't agree with you when all you want to do is fix the "cough" and not look at why someone is "coughing" in the first place?
Go **** yourselves, with a hot red rusted poker. And you wonder why no one likes you. Maybe because you don't actually look at what people are saying and assume they're saying something else. Or are you really that stupid? That's an insult to other stupid people.
I'm ashamed that you managed to get to me so much, but I am so f****** sick of people like you, thinking you know everything, and claiming I'm ignorant and know nothing about mental health when EVERY SINGLE NIGHT I dream about people DYING. I have died in my dreams many times, I can still feel the pain, the shock. It stays with me. I look at people in real life and see how they could die. I see people dying or getting injured every single day, multiple times a day, because my mind tortures me with it. I have tried to commit suicide multiple times, and have been plagued with depression for most of my life, and anxiety my entire life. And you want to tell me about mental health?
Go f*** yourselves.


Your life has been "mental health" for 30 years. What? I believe you mean I suffered from mental health problems for 30 years.


I'm pissed off, sorry you feel I need to be corrected. My mental health has dictated pretty much everything in my life. When someone says "This was my life!" That means they put a lot into it, that they're very invested in something. So yeah, it's been my life. Why would you feel it necessary to come onto a thread with someone who doesn't normally cuss telling people to go f*** themselves, and pick on something so stupidly insignificant?
Besides, the way you worded it, you act like I'm talking about you.

...calm down a bit, he's 12 years old.


bleh... I just wanted to rant about something that really got to me, and I've been so on edge lately with everyone life is throwing at us, it took me completely off guard to get "corrected" in the last place I expected, haha... -_- yeah, I did lose it, huh.

Rudin, I'm sorry. I don't normally snap at people like that... I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown, but I should know better. I had to put myself in time out today because I was losing it with my own kids...


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04 Oct 2015, 9:33 am

.. Thank you for acknowledging the fact that I'm not an NT...


But please, whenever I hear another lecture of "You should change for them, not them changing for you" crap, PLEASE, I'm well TOO AWARE of that fact so much, that I hate it. You don't have to tell or remind me that I have to learn about your world because everyone expects it.

We're both lucky that I'm willing to do so, even if it hurts. Otherwise it'll be either me as an anxiety-ridden wreck or a frustrated one might blow a lid on you. I don't like going to such state nor end up hurting anyone.

And I don't want to hear any more lectures how guile NTs are. Because whenever that's bought up, I'm tempted to do the same against them. After all, I'm just as capable and most of them foolishly don't know that. Also I just hate the idea of it, you don't need to threaten me of divine retribution.


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04 Oct 2015, 6:25 pm

Aristophanes wrote:
kamiyu910 wrote:
Rudin wrote:
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How the f*** do you dare tell me I know nothing about mental health? That is what has been my life for 30 years! And you have the gall to say I know nothing, because I don't agree with you when all you want to do is fix the "cough" and not look at why someone is "coughing" in the first place?
Go **** yourselves, with a hot red rusted poker. And you wonder why no one likes you. Maybe because you don't actually look at what people are saying and assume they're saying something else. Or are you really that stupid? That's an insult to other stupid people.
I'm ashamed that you managed to get to me so much, but I am so f****** sick of people like you, thinking you know everything, and claiming I'm ignorant and know nothing about mental health when EVERY SINGLE NIGHT I dream about people DYING. I have died in my dreams many times, I can still feel the pain, the shock. It stays with me. I look at people in real life and see how they could die. I see people dying or getting injured every single day, multiple times a day, because my mind tortures me with it. I have tried to commit suicide multiple times, and have been plagued with depression for most of my life, and anxiety my entire life. And you want to tell me about mental health?
Go f*** yourselves.


Your life has been "mental health" for 30 years. What? I believe you mean I suffered from mental health problems for 30 years.


I'm pissed off, sorry you feel I need to be corrected. My mental health has dictated pretty much everything in my life. When someone says "This was my life!" That means they put a lot into it, that they're very invested in something. So yeah, it's been my life. Why would you feel it necessary to come onto a thread with someone who doesn't normally cuss telling people to go f*** themselves, and pick on something so stupidly insignificant?
Besides, the way you worded it, you act like I'm talking about you.

...calm down a bit, he's 12 years old.


It's alright. I believe age is insignificant on a forum like this.

@kamiyu910

It's fine. I usually remain indifferent when people figuratively yell at me on forums for no good reason. I should have known better, rants are usually the antithesis of grammatically correct.

However I suggest you become less sensitive to criticism. If this is a sparse occurrence and it had to do with your mood at the moment, disregard my advice.


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04 Oct 2015, 7:23 pm

Rudin wrote:
Aristophanes wrote:
kamiyu910 wrote:
Rudin wrote:
kamiyu910 wrote:
How the f*** do you dare tell me I know nothing about mental health? That is what has been my life for 30 years! And you have the gall to say I know nothing, because I don't agree with you when all you want to do is fix the "cough" and not look at why someone is "coughing" in the first place?
Go **** yourselves, with a hot red rusted poker. And you wonder why no one likes you. Maybe because you don't actually look at what people are saying and assume they're saying something else. Or are you really that stupid? That's an insult to other stupid people.
I'm ashamed that you managed to get to me so much, but I am so f****** sick of people like you, thinking you know everything, and claiming I'm ignorant and know nothing about mental health when EVERY SINGLE NIGHT I dream about people DYING. I have died in my dreams many times, I can still feel the pain, the shock. It stays with me. I look at people in real life and see how they could die. I see people dying or getting injured every single day, multiple times a day, because my mind tortures me with it. I have tried to commit suicide multiple times, and have been plagued with depression for most of my life, and anxiety my entire life. And you want to tell me about mental health?
Go f*** yourselves.


Your life has been "mental health" for 30 years. What? I believe you mean I suffered from mental health problems for 30 years.


I'm pissed off, sorry you feel I need to be corrected. My mental health has dictated pretty much everything in my life. When someone says "This was my life!" That means they put a lot into it, that they're very invested in something. So yeah, it's been my life. Why would you feel it necessary to come onto a thread with someone who doesn't normally cuss telling people to go f*** themselves, and pick on something so stupidly insignificant?
Besides, the way you worded it, you act like I'm talking about you.

...calm down a bit, he's 12 years old.


It's alright. I believe age is insignificant on a forum like this.

@kamiyu910

It's fine. I usually remain indifferent when people figuratively yell at me on forums for no good reason. I should have known better, rants are usually the antithesis of grammatically correct.

However I suggest you become less sensitive to criticism. If this is a sparse occurrence and it had to do with your mood at the moment, disregard my advice.


Yeah, it's pretty much just my mood. If you look through my past posts, I don't think I've ever lost it before :( Gotten somewhat emotional, but not lost it... not a good sign, I think, but I don't have a clue how to fix me, or what's even wrong with me now haha.


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04 Oct 2015, 7:50 pm

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...I don't have a clue how to fix me, or what's even wrong with me now haha.

mee too. :alien: join the club of fellow strugglers :o



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05 Oct 2015, 4:47 am

Welp, I suck at TF2, I suck at Hearthstone... Remind me again why I even play multiplayer games in the first place. Honestly, they can be fun, but more often than not, they drive me mental. It's probably a good thing I don't play any MOBAs...



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09 Oct 2015, 12:41 am

Everyday I wish I was dead. I just want this nightmare to be over with. I hate my f*****g life so much, if you can even call it a life. It is not even a life, I am not living, I am simply existing.



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11 Oct 2015, 3:44 am

Good s.line, noca :heart:

Rant, and saw that one coming, put the words ****** and ***** and everyone jumps on the bandwagon(check if that's a word),even if it's against decency or common sense or logic. 'Show off goodness' I feel a conflation here with a certain AHUM*
Unite, unite, sacred unity holier than thou, and don't you see a troll with troll written on the face :!: bc more important is the crocodile-gear, goodgrieve!

And that's a big reason i don't believe in the actual criteria, or lumping the ** in for criteria sake,
do we define typicals by the worse possible handicap?
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14 Oct 2015, 10:20 am

Water heater broke, husband broke, my turn next.


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14 Oct 2015, 6:13 pm

^^^hope it's just a broken heating element.



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14 Oct 2015, 7:08 pm

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^^^hope it's just a broken heating element.


We need an entirely new unit... which we can't afford, so I guess we're going for a while with just cold water. At least we have water, eh? :(


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14 Oct 2015, 7:20 pm

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^^^hope it's just a broken heating element.


We need an entirely new unit... which we can't afford, so I guess we're going for a while with just cold water. At least we have water, eh? :(

do you have a woodstove?



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14 Oct 2015, 8:04 pm

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^^^hope it's just a broken heating element.


We need an entirely new unit... which we can't afford, so I guess we're going for a while with just cold water. At least we have water, eh? :(

do you have a woodstove?


No, though I've been through this sort of thing before and we'll be boiling water on the kitchen stove for baths if it gets too cold (it's been hot here, around 90 F).

We're still better off than I was growing up, but dang it's hard to figure out how to get out of debt so we can actually afford things. I thought with my husband's raise, things would get better, but then they upped our healthcare costs and it's just been wtf. We just got more student loans just so they could jack up his healthcare costs? Every single time I think we're going to get ahead, we get shoved backwards and I'm so tired of it. I'm having panic attacks daily, my husband collapsed at work because of the stress, and I just don't know what to do anymore. I keep looking around for things to sell and trying to figure out what we can cut to help out...


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14 Oct 2015, 8:32 pm

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We're still better off than I was growing up, but dang it's hard to figure out how to get out of debt so we can actually afford things. I thought with my husband's raise, things would get better, but then they upped our healthcare costs and it's just been wtf. We just got more student loans just so they could jack up his healthcare costs? Every single time I think we're going to get ahead, we get shoved backwards and I'm so tired of it. I'm having panic attacks daily, my husband collapsed at work because of the stress, and I just don't know what to do anymore. I keep looking around for things to sell and trying to figure out what we can cut to help out...

do you qualify for health plan subsidies?



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14 Oct 2015, 8:49 pm

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We're still better off than I was growing up, but dang it's hard to figure out how to get out of debt so we can actually afford things. I thought with my husband's raise, things would get better, but then they upped our healthcare costs and it's just been wtf. We just got more student loans just so they could jack up his healthcare costs? Every single time I think we're going to get ahead, we get shoved backwards and I'm so tired of it. I'm having panic attacks daily, my husband collapsed at work because of the stress, and I just don't know what to do anymore. I keep looking around for things to sell and trying to figure out what we can cut to help out...

do you qualify for health plan subsidies?


Subsidies are just for people who are paying for their own out of pocket, right? He gets his through his employer, but they take about $700? out each month for health insurance. I haven't found anything for someone whose employer enrolls the employee (not in California anyway).


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14 Oct 2015, 9:22 pm

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Subsidies are just for people who are paying for their own out of pocket, right? He gets his through his employer, but they take about $700? out each month for health insurance. I haven't found anything for someone whose employer enrolls the employee (not in California anyway).

IMHO his employer is gouging him. for that amount of money it had better be a Cadillac plan like regence blue cross/shield. is that for the whole family?