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We get Kaiser... and yeah, family of 4 :/
And of course they're gouging him. They're the 12th cheapest district in the entire country.

"district" - is he a teacher?

f**k social interaction

seriously, i can't even deal with this s**t anymore.. they won't even let me be dead and get some bloody peace and rest finally

Yeah, 8th grade English! Soooo much fun. On top of that, he's the wrestling coach, the video production instructor, runs the game and anime club, and the archery class as well as being the on-site tech. Any wonder he collapsed? And they only pay him a small extra for the wrestling, everything else he "gets" to do. For funsies, ya know? He's gotta say no to something...

how many years until he reaches his teacher retirement age?

About 30 more years?

Damn!

First time posting in this particular thread.. just feel the need to b***h for a minute -

I'm a 42 year old female, and in my fairly small fairly conservative town, especially on a Sunday afternoon, most of the women my age who are out and about shopping are in nicer clothes, either having been to church or just wearing their typical "uniform" of some sort of slacks and dressy flats and a sweater or blouse or whatever, with a short perfect hairdo and makeup and manicured nails as often as not, you know. Which is fine. I don't dress like that at any time in my normal routine because it's not sensible, given my daily routine of housework and getting kids on and off schoolbusses and going to the cat shelter to visit/play/brush them/help socialize the adoptees (get away from humans), etc, personally though.

Today I was a bit moody when I got done getting up and about for the day, so I decided to go out and run some errands in order to be able to drive and listen to music (it soothes me - not any real traffic around here to worry about usually, and music is one of my favorite things). I didn't bother with makeup, left my hair in a ponytail, and threw on some capri- length jeans and a t-shirt and a sweatshirt. The t-shirt has a tarotcard image on it but with a cat head instead of a human - I got it at Hot Topic when my daughter was shopping there over the summer. I like it, it has a cat and I like the tarot card (it's the Ryder Waite style "Magician" card for anyone who was going to ask - they even stayed authentic to the color which I love, and it has the infinity sign which I also really like). So anyway, the sweatshirt is a concert one with a cool band logo on the back, nothing offensive or anything.

I also wore slip-on Sketchers sneakers and brought a pair of socks in my purse so I could try on boots and slippers while I was out, since those were on my list.

Right off the bat people were giving me the side-eye while I was minding my own business. It was more crowded than usual and there were no carts available so I was carrying two huge boots boxes around in my arms while trying to find a place to sit and try them on, and people kept on giving me looks and saying "excuse me" and I would smile and let them by but one woman even said "mmmHM" under her breath as she went by, as if she was mentally confirming something to herself about me after getting close enough to see me better or something. I ignored it and sat down and put on my socks and tried the boots on quickly and then decided to leave the socks on for now even though they looked kinda silly with capri jeans and the slip-on sneakers I was wearing (or at least it did to me, I don't know).. but yeah I swear from then on out everyone who came near me gave me a funny look and an attitude. And the stock workers kept finding excuses to follow me around and pretend to be working while looking at me through racks, which I normally try to ignore but on top of the bitchy people in there giving me attitude it was really getting on my nerve. How am I going to steal a pair of tall winter boots in a two foot long box anyway? I'm clearly wearing my own dumb little sneakers still, it's not like I'm trying to wear the boots out.

But yeah then at the checkout, for the first time in probably 3 years of having a charge card at this particular store and using it a couple of times a month, or paying on it, or something - this time after I swiped it in their machine she reached across the counter and asked if she could see it. I mean, that's fine, they're sometimes gonna check the signature, when I was her age we always HAD to check the signature (but I'm old, I remember the carbon copy machines) but the way she took it and looked so hard at it and at me and whatever before giving it back with my receipt after she was finally done packing the bags and everything had me wondering what the heck was going on.

ugh none of this sounds that bad after typing it out, LOL, but it was so annoying one thing after another an feeling so judged while trying on my boots in particular.. that one woman really pissed me off. I hope I can say that here in the rant thread. Argh.

It just makes me remember 3 years ago when I accidentally bought a winter coat that made me somehow look magically grown up and NT and like I had money, apparently.. because everywhere I went that winter I wore that long black wool trench coat and a nice matching purse and pair of boots, with a cool wool hat with a brim (it was warm and also kept sun out of my eyes, and it meant I didn't have to ever do my hair) and everywhere I went I got double-takes and then smiles, and people saying hello and holding doors and letting me go in front of them and all kinds of stuff.

I've never found that formula again despite buying a new winter coat and matching boots, purse, and hat every couple of years. But it really sucks that depending on how uncomfortably and unnaturally I dress, people treat me either way better or way worse (when I'm comfortable like today).

I don't care what people think of me but I DO care how they treat me. well anyway rant over.

^^^too bad you can't move from that judgmental little town.

I would love to but my husband wants to stay here and we both have family here, plus our oldest kids are spread out around us in different directions and we're central here for now. I usually don't care but today I feel like I don't have any buffer between myself and the world, it's like everything is abrasive instantly today. Just don't have any ability to let stuff bounce off me right now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better but probably won't be just yet, based purely on female type stuff.

^^^my little town is the same way, but thankfully not as bad as a little Arizona town I visited who acted like they never saw a long-haired dude before.

I'm more inclined to trust long-haired dudes than a lot of other kinds of dudes (or dudettes).

^^^so does that mean you find short-haired women to be less trustworthy?

I mostly am joking. If anything, I just feel more kinship and maybe trust easier. I have brothers who were always in bands when I was growing up, they always had long hair, as did a number of my boyfriends back then... etc.

but yes I do trust women in general more slowly. I've had years of bad experiences with female peers all through school. I always fit in better with the guys.

^^^I fit in better only with other aspies whatever their gender.

Why am I still here?
Why do I exist?
What is my purpose?
Why and how do people put up with my sh*t?
Why do I have Asperger's, and why does it exist?
Why do I have meltdowns, and why can't I manage them as good as an NT can?

I would love to hear answers, but I guess I'll never know...