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I get so frustrated with my dad. It seems like when I have something going on he pries into what I'm doing and how it's done.Then if I make a mistake it feels like he talks down to me when I'm already aware that I made a mistake and am doing what I can to fix it. I sometimes tell him things and I'm not even asking for advice so it feels like he's trying to dominate me, even though I'm not living with him. Then I feel frustrated with myself because if I didn't bring it up in the first place he wouldn't do that. I'm starting to feel like if I have some kind of problem I shouldn't tell him at all because all it seems to do is cause confusion and for him to talk down to me. I'm already aware of the mistakes I make and I don't need someone reminding me that I messed up. It's not going to help with anything. It seems like half the time when I talk to him he just wants to argue or cause confusion. I don't really tell him about my problems that much anymore because of this, but I wanted to tell him about my car problem because he knows so much about them, but I feel like I can't tell him about any of my problems at all without him talking down to me. I know he's probably trying to help because he does give me advice sometimes, but I don't like it when He treats me differently. I use to call him almost every day to check on him and now I usually talk to him once or twice a week because it can be so frustrating to talk to him. He treats me differently than other people, he always seems to think that what I'm saying has a different meaning to it and he thinks that I'm trying to argue with him when I'm not. Then if I try to explain anything to him he seems to think that I'm getting defensive when I just want to be understood. It's so damn frustrating.

I think it's my voice too. I sound younger than I am and I think it causes people to think that I'm child-like so they don't take anything I say seriously and think that I'm just unaware of the mistakes I make. Why do people always have to make assumptions about me? I feel like I can't even communicate with most people because I'm always being misunderstood by them because they think that what I'm saying has a different meaning to it. If I ask someone a question they seem to either think that I'm looking for approval or that I'm trying to argue and they can't just honestly answer the question. It also makes me feel bad because maybe I'm doing something else that's causing people to treat me this way. They won't give me an honest answer though because they always think that my questions have a different meaning to them. Either that or they would probably ignore if I asked. The few people who do understand me won't be able to help that much because they aren't in those situations with me to know exactly what's going on.

WHY MUST I NOT COMMUNICATE

WHY MUST I SUFFER

WHAT HAVE I DONE

WILL THERE BE ANY LOVE LEFT ME OR ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER



I am actually ok but these feelings remain nonetheless,

I'm sick of the ableism from people who claim to be "socially left".

"The alt right are all just friendless, socially inept, unemployed virgins!" All this BS does is alienate the disabled and sugarcoat the reality that bigoted as*holes are often normal people whose success isn't at all damaged by their asinine views.

I think bigoted assholery would be almost nonexistent if it prevented its practitioners from succeeding. Its persistence shows it’s most likely a crucial ingredient of normal socialization.

O.K. Am I the only person here who is beyond pissed at the constant misuse of the word "defiantly" in place of "definitely"? Seriously, this needs to DIE!! !! !! !! It's not even just about the misuse of the word but the complete level of ignorance regarding basic human English. Case in point, I commented on a Facebook post a while back and therefore got notifications whenever another person commented on the same post. One of those posts was someone misusing the word "defiantly". I commented soon afterwards "Don't you mean 'definitely'?" merely trying to offer a bit of constructive criticism. This same person responded shortly after that saying "There is no difference." The amount of absolute ignorance in that comment was infuriating to me and led to me giving them a basic English lesson stating that yes there was a difference between the two, that "definitely" was a word used to imply positive affirmation of one's own opinion, and that "defiantly" was a word used to describe someone acting out in a manner of rebellion towards an authority figure. Seriously, wake up people and stop with all this ignorant BS that you're poisoning our culture with!! !! !! !! (sigh) Damn that felt good to let out.

This forum desperately needs a proper blocking function. It would make me so happy to make a certain few members just completely disappear, so I can forget the stupid pricks even exist.

I will never leave my home again,

I have doctors appointment next week, F em

If this building catches fire I burn with it

If I have a medical emergency I will F-ing die before I get help

Nothing will take me from this building alive ever again

This is my home, my bubble, my safe place and no one can hurt me here

I wish my family would leave me the hell alone. They're always looking for reasons to criticise me.

I wonder if you leave a suicide note explaining all your pain and then commit suicide if your loved ones would be more hurt by the fact that you were hurt and by the stuff you write in the note or if if they would be more hurt from losing someone close to them. Yes I am having thoughts of suicide and no I am not suicidal, I know its not the answer, I am just curious about the grief process I guess and just wonder if a note would even be a good idea under under such a circumstance. Then without a note you run into them never getting closure, there is no real solution, I guess that is why its not an answer.

FML

f**k this s**t, f**k my life, f**k my social skills, f**k this pain.

I'll just f*****g leave again, I am sorry for my f*****g existance, maybe I actually get it right this time and stop trying to live each day.

People whose sole objective in life is furthering their own interests are innately disgusting.

I agree.

Some people think I exist solely for their entertainment. I am their little monkey in a cage. I do not have rights to MY OWN life.

One woman even took pictures...

I feel so raped. And I can never get my life back as I used to know it.

I am not some toy, but will now forever feel like it. Just here waiting for your cameras, stares, judgments and laughter... Never knowing when again.

I hope they will understand in the Heaven, how much pain they caused.

I am a REAL human being, not a show.

Brexit is all part of our long term strategy over our bedside island negotiations. Yes, I'll remember to breathe when it happens and to chuck the health ministers plans into a state of total panic when it doesn't.

Is it wrong to think outside the box and want more of yourself in terms of being able to do something that falls outside of your normal skill set? For much time now I've done unskilled or semiskilled occupations. Deep down inside I know I'm capable of much more than that even if I don't have the innate skills.I'm honestly willing to learn whatever it takes to actually find serenity with doing something that I truly believe in regardless of what that may be.The best way of saying this is the workplace be it job resumes/job interviews don't necessarily work for everyone. I'm not discounting this fact, just pointing out how in today's world many corporations both large and small wish not to invest time in training people for fear that person simply walks off.

I'm seriously considering doing my own business of small nature cause, it's something I could actually see myself doing on a daily basis and feel good about emotionally & financially.Here in Genosha where I live there is very limited about of resources for autistic adults on an occupational level, which means you wind up having to take menial related jobs even if your not mentally ret*d or have severe cognitive deficits.I would like to not be stuck in a vicious cycle of doing things that make me feel unhappy as well, being in workplace environments where you wind up being tormented,bullied,etc.