Marknis wrote:
Well, I was already feeling burned out even before this incident but I was being encouraged to go on that day and my mind is constantly wondering if maybe things will be different. Being scolded certainly didn't help.
I feel like I would be handle it better than my family does with their relationships. My mother doesn't get that her constantly being a control freak and telling her husbands they are fat (What should she expect from redneck men in the first place?) is why she keeps getting divorced. My father keeps leading his mistresses on and wonders why he keeps getting swamped in drama. Both of my siblings treated their girlfriends like sex toys and ended up getting them pregnant.
So you misjudged your ability to handle tiring situations? Well, that happens sometimes, even to NTs or so I hear. Try to pay more attention to how much you can handle and learn to keep your head when you decide that it's a good time to leave.
Have you noticed how you're always badmouthing your family and the area you live in? I don't know them nor do I know the area, but I still think you should consider stopping. What good will it do to you to keep repeating how much better you are than them? It'll only make you bitter in the end, I think.
By the way, have you made any process on the things mentioned earlier?
I have a gym membership now and my therapist actually thinks it's a good idea that I exercise more.