Rainbow_Belle wrote:
I did not choose to have Asperger's
No, you did not. It is often actually helpful to keep that in mind,
e.g. when someone seems to be blaming you for having it.
Rainbow_Belle wrote:
and this terrible thing is ruining my life.
It needn't actually
ruin your life, but it is a disability, and in the interests of your own sanity you need to try to find a way of accepting you have this disability.
Rainbow_Belle wrote:
I cannot do many things because of my Asperger's.
True. Unfortunately that goes with the disability territory. So it's a question of extracting whatever joy you can from whatever things you can do, because sitting around contemplating all the stuff you can't do is
not going to improve your quality of life.
Rainbow_Belle wrote:
No one likes me because of my Asperger's.
I know that feeling well enough, but happily some people do have the ability to perceive the good stuff in you, and they'll be able to see past the Asperger's and like you for who you are. How to meet those people, I don't know, but I can tell you I've somehow met some, now and again: they
are out there!
Rainbow_Belle wrote:
I find it hard to find a job and even harder to keep a job because of my Asperger's.
Yes, I could upload my
c.v. and it'd say the same thing. But I didn't choose to have Asperger's any more than you did, so I don't blame myself for my car-crash of a career and there is no shame in it. The money aspect is a problem, admittedly, and can be a source of anxiety and depression in itself; but many disabled people are up against that same problem. People have often told me there are more important things than money, but my landlord and my coalman and my electricity supplier don't tend to see it that way... So money is the one concern I have no positive suggestion about, unfortunately.
Good luck, Rainbow Belle.
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You can't be proud of being Neurodivergent, because it isn't something you've done: you can only be proud of not being ashamed. (paraphrasing Quentin Crisp)