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I get ten emails a week telling me to move somewhere else & get paid more to build more software. I chose to live nearby everyone hoping I could make more time for all my friends in my life. Now my revised home life indicates to me nothing's changed & suggests I should simply keep moving. I miss everyone but I don't know if I should stay.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Denis,

Hope you are doing well. Hope to see you playing again soon.

Dear Myself,


"To make things easier, I'd just remove myself out of the equation then everyone will be happy".
"There is no need for me to join in; you guys should enjoy while I watch".
"My answer is no, because if I do that things will mess up for you guys"

You foolish fool.
Must you foolishly justify your deep seated self-rejection, perpetuate unworthiness and deny your selfishness on top of it in the guise of guilt and remorse!??

You're an idiot and a weak fool.


Yours Untruly...

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James

No it's not someone's role to "just take it."

Be less arrogant.

We're in our 30s and it's 2019.

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I had bad crushes at school that never made it to fruition.

I waited two years for one woman to call me.

I was 21 years old. We were co-workers. She followed me home one night. We communed. Then communed again one other time. Then she lost interest. I wanted to marry her.

I can be very flirty. I can do this again.

I hope the next guy is nice and hangs around.

Just wanted to wish you a birthday and to hope life has been going good for you, simply because I'm sorta-but-not-completely able to get to you, and if I can, I will, or at least try to and fail amazingly. Nothing else but best wishes for you.

Sorry for any negative feelings you might have had, and have from such. Just ignore me if that's the best for you (I had no intent to grab social attention from you, as social and I aren't on hemispherical terms); I won't bother you. I understand.

Take care

Dear H,

You treated me like you could see me and you have no idea how much that mattered to me. I'd been hanging on by a thread before I met you and you saved me for a time. But then everything got f***ed up and it felt like you never saw me at all, you just somehow knew what I yearned for and gave me just enough of it to enslave me. That feeling of being saved gave way to feeling like I was used at my weakest moment and what love I had left for life was taken away.

It's been weeks since everything exploded and no spark has returned to my soul. I don't have any hope anymore, no dreams to live for. I'm already dead inside and I'm just waiting for my body to get the message.