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Honest answer?

Self harm, erasing this username from existence, hacking closed account like Facebook to obliterate my existence online and considering developing a plan to kill myself.

...You asked...

Also since this username doesn't matter, it will be the only name I ever post online with, nothing else will connect to me and the damage is actually really minimal since since I never got into social media. In fact, most things related to me on Facebook, are references to how ret*d I am from work and church.... and its gone.

Also I found two arrest records online that were thrown out in court

I didn't even think that was legal since being thrown means it wasn't valid in the first place. I swear those that enforce the rules don't follow the rules

Also when I said I saw one of my abusers the other day, I saw them online, I have no idea what happened to them. They are probably dead, I'll spare the details but its f****d, like everything else in my life. Their myspace is still up surprisingly though but the last login was 2011 which would have been the time some f****d s**t was going on.

Last edited by dcj123 on 21 Nov 2016, 4:51 pm, edited 1 time in total.

^^^ Can always rely on you to be honest.

That sounds bleak, I'm truly sorry . What is your level of choice in your self-harm? Like sometimes I need to hurt myself instinctively and I don't have much choice, but other times I make a conscious decision to do it. They're very different things, the former is usually when I feel bad and I don't know why, and the latter is when I know exactly why, and that 'why' is me.
I don't cut by the way, I have other methods.

Can't blame you for erasing your social media presence, I'd ask you to erase mine if I could. A friend made it for me years ago and I hate that to this day people I meet can look me up and find stuff about me without my consent.

Does this mean you're leaving WP too then? Your persona here is pretty anonymous, ofc because you're smart. Stay , you say so much stuff that I relate to. That's selfish of me though, you do what you need to do.

f**k, court records on line, that's really not good. I didn't think it was legal either, though I'm no expert in US law so what do I know. Could you contact the site holder?

Well I am actually making more accounts under the name dcj123 so... maybe? This persona is pretty anonymous which is cool and what is better is there are some real stupid people that are not me under the name dcj123 on some shady sites. One for cheating in online games which I have never done and... strange hacker stuff from Tokyo? WTF? Anyway, that wasn't so much to leave as much as be able to post what I want and not give a damn to destroying my real life character which is odd cause I don't think you can destroy it anymore. I can post all about my s**t past now and its not really a problem to be honest. So I am going to vent my s**t life here in haven in the coming days / weeks and then I'll make a decision but I will probably leave.

That's a good strategy. I had to take a moment there to see what my username's associated with, but not much of note. I don't know if somebody could find out who I am just with my username, I guess the right kind of person could. Damn it, now I'm paranoid.

Yeah, take the opportunity to vent in the haven. Regardless of what you decide to do it can't do any harm, and I don't say that because you have a ruined reputation (I still don't think you do at all) - I say that because that's what the haven is for. If you're judged there by someone then f**k them quite frankly.

Racheypie666 is associated with the Sims 3, the student room, and a review of a post office in a suburb of Coventry. Haha, my life is f*****g empty.

Happy.








birth.

day.

^ Is it your birthday?

I didn't say anything not to be rude, I haven't really been here that long, says I have been here for years but I have only been here out of my shell this last year enough to participate. So I did not know if it was your birthday.

^ Happy Birthday Raleigh, if it is your birthday.

If not, happy unbirthday.

Honestly, I thought I could do well at fps games specifically worldoftanks, yet I'm not super aggressive when it comes to enemy tank players as well, that game was far too competitive and not easy to progress through.
Luckily there are other pc games that I can play which are more autistic friendly.

Death

The death of my relationships
The death of my beliefs
The death of my sanity

Life is cruel...

I never see the damage until its gone

Your drugs are always the problem so lets sell you ours

Society has no concept of cause and effect,

If you create a social norm to not do a substance and then create a sub culture of accepted medical use while also spoon feeding society that its okay to use it recreationally then you have created a disaster down the road. Lines blur on what is recreational and what is medical. This is going suck in the coming decades and no one sees it

Its going to lead to more discrimination, with much needed medications

I think that was intention all along to be honest...