Dear you
Ok so on the surface I feel that you are an idiot, plus many other negative things, like being closed minded and delusional. It grates on me, gets under my skin and my instinct is to tell you to stfu, you idiot.
Yet that minset just fuels the self hatred, more of the same... which really isnt helpful for either of us. Thats well established by now.
I'm gonna try be more patient with you, forgiving and less dismissive. You know these things but you dont understand them yet, only lived experience will make that possible. You see the writing on the wall, but it doesnt make any sense through those foggy love lenses.
You dont know yet that you've built a delusional world, a house of cards, or understand how unsustainable it all is. How could you know, the only thing that's certain in a life is change, impossible to predict.
You're a shadow of the real you, such potential yet you aren't self aware, how could you be true to who you really are.
That mask, that spike laden armour keeps you feeling protected, it too is a delusion protecting a delusion.
Trust me, I've got this, I've lived through more than you could imagine, I know you're vocal but you genuinely dont know what you are talking about.
Your negativity is eating away at my core, I want you to stop, yet that's not in my power.
I'm gonna try to forgive you instead and leave the past where it belongs. Not quite forgetting, but taking the lessons learned with me.
You can't put an old head on young shoulders.
From me x