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I feel like I'm a crappy person, who never should have been born. I only survived birth due to extreme medical intervention. Sometimes I feel like Nature knows when a person is hopelessly unviable, and Man shouldn't interfere with that.

Aside from that, everything's great!

Thanks kaz. Sorry for being all gloom and doom. And ranting in the Rant thread. And then apologizing for ranting in the Rant thread. It's one of those days!

I'm just gonna not talk to my parents about things, because they really don't understand.

"Oh, you can't concentrate? Take more Adderall!"

Nooo.

I wanted to come up with actual solutions that will help me with staying focused, like say, setting a timer or taking short breaks.

As a family, I was hoping to be able to discuss this and come up with some possible solutions, because you're my parents and you know me pretty well. (And I know they want me to do well in school.)

But no. Apparently, medication is the only way to fix my problems, not trying to figure out how to deal with your disability and developing coping strategies to use in life.

PS: And no, ADD is not an autism spectrum disorder.

I'm reluctantly to say this, but Lillikoi it seems your parents do not wish to see that there can be more than 1 way of dealing with things.

I'm so f*****g sick of waiting! Just waiting and waiting and feeling insecure. When I get reassured on one thing, a new issue poppes up. Just never ever feeling safe I just want to be able to rest and truly feel safe for once. In reality you never can. Terrible things can and will happen.

I sometimes get sick of waiting too.
But this is your life's evolution.
Evolution shouldn't be rushed.
Everything will unfold in its own time.

I wish I was better at living with uncertainties. Soon I will crawl into my white safe haven. (but maybe there is a small water leakage under my new bathroom, that will slowly rot away everything)

^ but maybe there is not, and you will spend the next ten years worrying about it unnecessarily.

Worrying over things you can't control is pointless because you can't control it.
Worrying over things you can control is also pointless because you can control it.

There.
Nothing to worry about

^Thank you.. I think you actually did help a little. I am of course aware of the facts you are stating, but reading them did feel good anyway. It's very weird. Maybe I think you on some level can make sure no water leakage happens

^ oh yes, because I have that power

On another level of weirdness, I think the things you think about most are the things most likely to happen.